A question I keep hearing - 'Why would you want to have bottom surgery?'

 I  have been asked so many times on my socials / sites, as well as seen it being asked in chat rooms and comments on video's.

Well, it isn't for everyone for starters. I randomly think about it, and the desire (and need) to not just have a pussy, an extra hole, but to NOT have my limp little (or now tiny as it shrinks the mere anal I have) boiclitty cock.

That said, between those times I do enjoy feeling my limp boiclotty (it goes soft n limp as soon as I am penetrated in my ass) flop around as i get fucked, mimicking the noise made by the man;s balls slapping against me as he rails me hehe

An extra hole, means being able to take (at least) one more cock... the idea of 3 cocks making me air tight makes me so horny.

What are you thoughts?

Even a boring men's t shirt can look amazing with a bra & boobs underneath

 As my followers will know, I am very much a gay crossdresser, you only have to look at my free Twitter, let alone my OnlyFans or new ManyVids profiles to find that out LOL

I have been a fulltime panties wearer for over 25 years now, and every chance I get I am in a bra + DD breast forms, and women's clothes from skirts, jeans, dresses or leggings. And maybe in tights, thigh high hold ups or stockings.

But, on this day, my point is that even though I had to be in a boring mens top (work video calls), with careful camera and sitting angles I could still have a bra & DD breasts underneath, still feel gurly and fem. And, if I am honest I was quite surprised how good it looked, what do you think?

How are my little gurly tiddies doing? update (03 Nov 2022) & advice please!

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shopping experience in 2022

I was under the belief, maybe misguided belief, that we had moved forward over the last few years and away from stereotypical attitudes.

I was doing some food shopping in a big, well known British supermarket and as I walked past their clothing section decided to go and look at the lingerie, and maybe some summer linen trousers (I really want a new pair of white linen trousers, just see through enough to be saucy but not improper, well maybe just a little bit naughty too lol). 

I am looking for a new bra and panty set, maybe more than one, in A/AA size, lace or sheer without padding etc. so I can wear under anything as my titties slowly grow. Sometimes visible through tops and other times hidden, depending on how confident I am feeling and location / company.

Anyway, as I browsed the lingerie section, seeing a few that I liked and picking them up to get a better look, and at least 2 or 3 times see if they had my size (36 A or AA). It was after putting back one bra, I hadn't even picked up any panties yet, that I noticed a member of staff watching, an older lady, just standing watching me. As I moved around she followed, stopping every time I did and then moving with me, always keeping me in sight.

I will be honest and say this really annoyed me, infuriated, and I was tempted to confront her and / or see a manager, but it was late and I just wanted to get home - point to note as well is that this was just a few days before Valentines Day, a time of year I am sure there are millions of men (haha) looking at lingerie for their wives, girlfriends, mistresses and more. As well as crossdressers, bisexuals and gays buying new underwear for themselves and/or partners.

She continued to follow me as I looked at linen trousers and only stopped when i returned to the main grocery part of the store. 

As she didn't approach me, ask if I needed any help or to check if a size I wanted was in stock, I can only presume that she was watching as I was a male looking at bra's and panties, maybe her generation wouldn't have done such a thing but she works in a modern store so should be aware that times have changed, and if not she is in the wrong job.

She had no way of knowing which category I fell into, I wasn't in a skirt, dress or any obvious female clothes (unless I had shown my thong when bending down to look at racks of bra's) but in jeans and a t shirt, perfectly ordinary clothes. And, it shouldn't matter - I was a customer looking to make a purchase, whilst shopping, and in 2022 it most definitely should NOT matter which group I was in - in so many ways it was just wrong.

After leaving, and driving home (without any new lingerie or trousers) I wished I had asked to see a manager, complained and made my feelings known. I am not easily offended or put off, and have been lingerie shopping for myself for over 20 years so not bothered by stares or giggles, but others may or will be offended, upset and put off exploring them own world, their own needs and happiness.

Just wrong in this day and age.

Rant over for today

Can you tell, just by looking?

NO, I am not asking if you can tell at a glance, if a person is trans or not, if they are hiding (or not) a boiclitty cock.

I am talking about clothes. I often answer the door and go out wearing women's jeans, and anyone that wears them knows the main difference from the front.

From the rear, the shape and way women's jeans cup, support or highlight your ass n butt cheeks is so much better than men's jeans, they give your ass shape, tight coverage and look sexy as hell.

But from the front, do you know / can you tell at a glance if the person in front of you is wearing men's or women's jeans?

They both have pockets, zips n buttons - but the zip / button fastenings open from the opposite direction

Men's jeans have the opening, and flap covering the zip from the right, and women's from the left - don't believe me, have doubts - go check.

I love wearing women's jeans, not just because I am a crossdresser or that I want people to notice, but also because they look better and are much more comfortable to wear, I would always chose women's jeans if I have the option.

If you have a wife, girlfriend, significant other or even sister and are similar in size, go try them on - it doesn't make you gay, gurly, sissy, trans, a crossdresser or any combination - just try them and let me know in the comments how they feel, how they make you look and feel better and hotter (in a sexy way LOL).

chance to dress as a women, crossdressing heaven

I have really enjoyed this week,  I have had the opportunity- time and freedom, even though working I have had less video calls than usual so been able to be female all over, rather than just below the waist n putting bra, breadt forms and womens top on between calls.

I have enjoyed the feeling of being in womens clothes, loved the look and feel of having boobs - the way clothes are pushed out on my DD's as well as the weight n movement of the breasts themselves. It still makes me smile, just being dressed, even in plain simple leggings and t shirt, nothing fancy or sexy, just being in womens clothes. To put it simply, being in womens clothes is relaxing, its happiness, its just right!

I have varied what I have worn, from low rise jeans (these feel amazing, I would wear them all the time if I could, they are comfy, practical yet a little naughty n sexy too. Also mini skirts, a dress n yoga pants. Mixed in with various womens t shirts and tops.

And of course, as well as panties I have had bra's on, sometimes a matching set others just any bra that came to hand. Looking down, seeing the push of my DD's against the tops, the peaks that push out from my chest,  god I wish they were real n mine everyday. 

Oh, n I have worn stiletto heels most days too, on my feet for anything from 2 or 3 hours up to about 7 hours - bliss! Hearing them click on the wooden floor or outside on the patio slabs / concrete path when doing recycling or taking a break from sitting in front of a laptop. They should be compulsory for everyone that isn't an alpha male hehe, convert everyone tk gurliness. 

So, all in all been a wonderful week thatbi have enjoyed, felt myself and been happy. Lets hope I get more time next week to do the same.

And of course, I have taken pics that are on my twitter and other sited / pages - visit my Link Tree for all my genuine links. 

Nuke Nutrition - Femme Boost. Breast growth / enlargement supplements for girls, guys, trans and everyone else too (Product Review) - updated 08/05/2022

 So, I started a new brand of breast enlargement supplements on Saturday 11/09/2021, Nuke Nutrition - purchased from eBay at a great price, and with multi buy discounts too

The description matched what I was looking for, with good feedback and reviews. So, I ordered 2 packets, so 120 tablets - 1 per day, giving me 4 months to add on to the 2 I have already completed on Femme Enhance (see previous review). And they are manufactured in the UK, not of interest to me as I love my 'meat' to much but suitable for Vegans too.

I have completed my 1st week, all feeling good, with some puffy little tiddies, I am guessing (and in fact hoping) they are like a teenage girls as she goes through puberty into womanhood - that is what I after all, even if a bit later in life and I have a boiclitty n balls in my panties

w/e 24th September 2021

End of 2nd week of taking this supplement. No obvious side effects, not feeling ill, strange, sick, dizzy etc or any of the usual listed side effects.

In myself, I feel good, I feel relaxed and settled - which is always good, although I know I need to get back into my exercise regime - squats, leg thrusts etc as well as step and the old chest improving exercises (I must, I must, improve my bust hehe).

Physically, waist n hips seem to be the same, ratio hasn't changed although, as I have said, not really been exercising much for last couple of months and really need to get back into it. 

Looking down, I have defined puffy little tiddies, that I am hoping will firm up and grow, they look and feel amazing, sensitive and so gurly.

01/10/2021

Been taking these a couple of weeks now, my little tiddies are puffy n bouncy, they jiggle around when I prod them or shake / jump around and I am addicted to the feeling and watching them lol. According to measurements no real difference, although I think I may change from inches to cm & mm as that may be easier to detect the small changes. Anyway, feeling great, feeling gurly n hoping they grow, I get a curvy figure n less body hair would be good to.

09/10/2021

I have decided to move these updates to Saturday, makes it easier for me to measure and update you wonderful people.

This week, I can clearly see a more puffy, pronounced breast shape - not saying I have sprouted tits, I should be so lucky! But little tiddie buds lol puffy, soft to the touch and the best bit - they jiggle n wobble, if not bounce, as i shake them- couldn't stop smiling at something so simple!

16/10/2021

Another good week, loving looking at my little tiddy buds. I have shaved the chest hair off of them - hoping that the body hair starts to lessen as i take more of these supplements, but they look so puffy n little gurly - happy

23/10/2021

I think I may have missed a day this week, just found a tablet in my pocket - so gonna have 2 today to make up for it! I have changed the way I measure, well the units - to cm/mm as easier to identify small changes - like the fact that I think my boobie cup measurement has gone up by 2mm this week.

Anyway, feeling good, feeling gurly and having fun

06/11/2021

Not sure what happened to last weeks update, can't have saved it!

Anyways, feeling great, loving that my puffy little tiddies are definitely looking more defined, and soooo sensitive. Last week, and again this week, changing to measuring in mm/cm rather than inches has made it better, and over both weeks I can see a week on week growth of my boobie cup, it may only be in mm, but it is still gurly growth!

13/11/2021

I have opened my2nd packet now, still taking one tablet a day. Feel great, and my puffy little tiddies are slowly growing, and i am hoping i will soon start getting a curvy hip/waist and lost some body hair - fingers crossed. Measurements do suggest I am slowly growing tits, natural tits!

2022

Have to firstly apologies for not posting any updates since November 2021. Could say too busy, Christmas.. blah blah... but, yes I have been busy but still should have posted.

I have finished my first 2 packs, and ordered 4 more, so enough to take me through for a full year on these supplements from Nuke Nutrition.

No problems, I feel great and personally I can see that my little tiddies are clearly defined and poking out, with perky little nipples that are 100% more sensitive than ever before. I love it. Need to check my measurements and see if the sizes show any small changes too

May 2022

I keep forgetting to update this, and i have also not been measuring my little tiddies.

But, I can clearly see that I know HAVE small tiddies, that are soft and squidgy, wobble n bounce and i love them. I want bigger tits! I promise to pose an update, with measurements and a photo very soon, Lena xxx

I realise I haven't posted an update on here about these breast growth pills, so sorry and I will - or start a new thread about how my little tiddies are growing. They look like they are, but I haven't measured them in months... so, we will all see together

Lena xxxxx

Buying worn panties, generic or pair specific?

 This may seem like a strange question, but hey - everyone that reads my blog knows I may be just a 'little' bit of a perverted anal slut lol

As you have hopefully seen on my twitter, Instagram, Onlyfans, Chaturbate, FanCentro or the latest site I am try - Justfor Fans (Don't worry about trying to save / remember all of these links - just use my Linktr.ee and it has everything all in one place!) I like to sell my worn, dirty and smelly, stained panties - thong, boyshort or bikini, as well as a picture DVD and all of my photos / video's in stand alone / bundle packs.

Anyway, my weird question - do you prefer, or not care, if the used panties are sold from one 'generic' picture, or for each pair to have an individual listing so that you can see what is on offer?

I am thinking of trying out making a Etsy store page, or maybe using Webnode? Or maybe shifting everything to Fansly or a similar adult site

Any thoughts, preferences or ideas always gladly welcomed as well as interest in buying my items, supporting me to buy more fem clothes and sex toys to play with, make content and live cam shows.

Femme Enhance - Pills for Breast Enlargement, for Women and for Men (Product Review) Updated 11/09/2021

 I have been doing exercises to try and tone up my ass, give me a curved waist / hipline and to hopefully grown some boobs, get myself some gurly mtf tiddies!

I have also been looking at several supplements that are meant to help, and have been reading the product reviews and descriptions repeatedly for months now. So, last week I took the plunge, added a new one to my Amazon Wishlist (Qty 5+) and ordered a pack before I could change my mind. This is the Femme Enhance - Pills for Breast Enlargement. 

They arrived quickly, in fact on the first day of the delivery window advised when I ordered, in plain packaging that didn't give any hint / idea of what was inside - so as far as speed and discretion go - 10/10.

Having read the information on the product page, and then the slips in the pack, I took 4 measurements, as a starting guide - Hip, Waist, Bust (under boob area) and Cup (across nipples), and took my first pill. Obviously it's a bit early to expect any changes as I am only on day 2, but I will be taking measurements every week and will update / post new blogs as I go.

It is also worth noting, and only fair, that the instructions do say that some people (I am guessing more men that want to grow boobs from basically nothing) may need to take 2 a day (normal does is 1) and it may require 2 packs (60 days at 1/day or 30 at 2/day) to see noticeable changes.

Initial views, product and description match, well packaged and discrete packaging. Instructions are clear and the pills are easy to take, no adverse effects or anything to report so far.

Lets hope I get some tiddies to share and play with.

24/07/2021 - Update

Week One has ended, so time for an update.

I am going to start off with an excerpt from an email I sent to the vendor, as due to Amazon's rule that you can't leave a review unless £40+ has been spent on your account in the previous 12 months - not sure what the amount spent has to do with being able to give an honest review, but I am sure Amazon knows best!

Anyway, I sent them a link to my first post, and this is from their wonderful reply:

What prevents you from increasing your dosage to the higher level of 2 or sometimes even 3 pills per day is the possibility of premenstrual type symptoms.

Since phytoestrogens are similar to estrogens, it is entirely possible that when you take these pills you may feel at higher dosages PMT like effects - bloating slight headache etc.

If you do not experience these, then you can increase your dosage without problems and results happen even faster.

The thing to do is experiment. I am sure that you will succeed however.

So pleased that they replied.

Anyway, I have had no side effects that I have noticed, happily continuing to take the whole supply, and hopefully more after that too. I am so glad I have decided to try, and if needs be hopefully give me the confidence to go on and get hormone therapy, and grow a gurly body - shapely, curved, hairless n with boobs!

As to my measurements, nothing has changed so far, hips, waist bust n boobs the same, but it has only been 7 days.

Here's to another 7 days and another update 

30/07/2021

So, end of the 2nd week of taking these supplements. I have to say, still easy to do and no problems.

As to any changes, the important bit.

Visually, when I look down at my chest my little tiddies do look slightly bigger, a bit puffy and poking out a bit more, squidgy or squishy may be a better way if describing it. Not a huge change, certainly not a cup size change, but they look better and more pronounced to me, still too much hair on my chest though! And, my nipples are definitely more sensitive. Previously rubbing, touching, pinching etc had no effect. I didn't feel any sensation and they didn't harden. Whereas  now I do feel sensations n get excited and aroused when playing with them and they harden n poke out more - and I love it! 

My measurements (that yes I know I still need to share). Hips and waist no change, but a slight change in my chest (under tiddies) and across my tiddies for the cup size. Only about 0.1-0.2" but still a change, hopefully next week its the same or more!

06/08/2021

Apologies, I forgot to post an update on Friday, for the end of week 3. Still feel ok, no problems with the tablets at all. Looking at myself, I think I can see more definition in my little, well tiny, tiddies. They look to have a slightly more defined shape, a squishy roundness and definitely sensitive nipples! Oh my are they getting more fun. They get hard to the touch, and make me feel sooo good. I have even noticed myself getting a nipple on, pokies, from friction between my top n flesh, I am really, really enjoying that I can tell you. 

As to size, again slight changes in my under boob and cup measurements and this week in my hips too. Now, I am not getting excited, even though this is the second week I have seen changes in chest measurements, this could just be me not doing it in the same place/way so u am going to try to be more observant of this as I measuee from now on, maybe look in the mirror to try and match week on week. 

And, as a sign of my happiness at the possible changes, even though it may be me, I have ordered my 2nd box, so will be going into 1 2nd month and beyond, if some of my fans /followers feel nice maybe they could buy me some or donate and I will up the dose to 2 tablets a day and see if that speeds up the changes, I really hope so. The way I feel today, I would gladly and happily take estrogen hrt or a 'transformation' pill to get a curvier waist n hips and bigger boobs x

One question I do have, and tbh I haven't checked if they are meant to - not seen any changes in chest/nody hair yet x

13/08/2021

So, week 4 - My 2nd order has arrived already, so I have enough pills for another 30 days (at 1 per day), unless I increase the dose to see if my tiddies grow quicker.

Visually, they are puffy and look more defined, with nice sensitive nipples. I have found myself massaging (or fondling) my little tiddy bumps and it feels very good, before starting these pills I had never been one for playing with my nipples, or having them played with - I didn't mind but they just didn't react in anyway. I like it now! Hopefully it may help them grow too.

Measurement wise, just a small change in the hip / waist ratio, not enough to give me womanly curves but I can dream. Tiddies wise, again slight changes but I am happy and want to keep trying.

More next week!

20/08/2021 - week 5 update

I am not sure what I can say, other than that I am fine and my little tiddies are clearly more defined and puffy, very sensitive and soft to the touch - which made it difficult to measure, I need to pracive NOT squishing my tiddies to try and get a true guide as to size and growth. 

No side effects, just me feeling good and hoping that my boobs grow!

27/08/2021

Another week has gone by, and if I am being honest I would say that my tiddies look puffier and rounder, more defined and easily show as little tiddies, and I am proud of them. I also feel gurlier in myself, whether that is just wishful dreaming who knows, but I am happy with it.

As to measurements, hips and waist are the same, but there are slight changed to my bust n cup size. Across my very sensitive puffy nipples I appear to have grown, only by about 0.2" but it looks like growth, and I am sooo happy. Obviously I am going to keep taking the pills, and am now seriously considering taking 2 per day to see if I get a faster reaction n change to them x x 

04/09/2021

Gonna start this week's update with the usual feelings, looks etc and then add a 2nd bit.

So, my tiny little tiddies are soft, puffy and appear rounder, and the sensitivity of my nipples has increased again, god it's so wonderful hehe.

I have started to massage (well play) with my tiddies at least once everyday, i Know - such hardship hehe. 

As to measurements, my hip/waist ratio seems to be improving, only small changes but if it continues it will give me a wider hip and curvier waist profile, and what gurly doesn't want that!

Tiddies, it may just be the way i am measuring but again looks like a small increase in both my bust (under boob) and cup (across my nipples) measurements. So all good.

But, as I only have 1 strip of 10 pills left, I went to order some more, only to find that they are no longer available. I looked in a couple of places but couldn't find the same ones (unless I wanted to pay £50 for 30 tablets that is from a 3rd party seller not the original so no guarantee they are actually the same).

I will keep looking, but so I don't run out and maybe lose any hormone balance changes that I may have achieved, I have also ordered another brand - So once I start them I will start a new blog - only fair on them both. But, if i can get more of these going forward, I will.

06/09/2021 - Update

I haven't been able to get any more of these tablets, and they are still showing as no confirmed date of restock/availability.

So, I have looked around and ordered another type, made in the UK with good reviews, and a great price /offer.

As to my Femme Enhance, I have enough left to double up this week, so 2 tablets per day, and end them on Friday- day of my next measurement and tiddie check.

I will then start the new ones from Saturday, and a new review/blog update post.

11/09/2021 - Update

So today i took my last Femme Enhance Pill, I have looked on Amazon and a few other sites, but still none available unless I want to pay way to much (£30-£50 for 30 tablets).

Anyway, looking in the mirror and down at my chest, I am convinced my little tiddies are more defined, rounder and plumper than before i started these tablets, and without any doubt my nipples are more sensitive than ever.

Measured myself, small changes but the right kind, and still no side effects.

I will post a table of my measurements for you all to see, and comment on if you desire too

Lena x

How biased and discrimanatory is social media

 No matter how much the social media platforms keep saying they are equal, support all genders, sexual preference and religions etc etc, fully behind LGBTQ / LGBTQ+, in practice its not.

I promised myself I wouldn't rant about the blatant preference and discrimination towards some gender types / sexual identifications.

Last week I tried to post 2 photos to my Instagram Account, and within seconds it was removed as it 'breached the guidlines on nudity and sexual content'.

Before i share the photo, bear i mind I have panties on, they are not sheer or seethrough in anyway, they are not so tight they clearly define and outline my boiclitty cock, which is not hard and obviously a cock. I do not promote any sexual activity, promotion or anything but myself.

I requested a review, which took several hours, and surprise surprise it was still removed for the Nudity and sexual content. I have appealed, but don't expect to get it even looked at (Instagram / Facebook say they get too many appeals to look at the all so just select a few to look at - totally fair system) as I am not a famous person or influencer with many thousands of followers. I am just me, trying to share and hopefully help others that are starting or on the journey of crossdressing, recognising that they are trans or coming out.

Going through my feed yesterday the following images popped up, they have been viewed by thousands, and have substantially more followers than me, but I am sure this has no bearing at all.

I am sure you can see, clearly see, why I am annoyed - very clear sexual content, very clear sexual organs in an aroused state and clear genitals, but both of these photos are OK - and this is a fair system?

Pardon my language, and tbh i am past caring if IG ban me again, but this is total bollocks. 

14/09/2021

Yet again Instagram, and Facebook, have shown their bias.

I logged into my IG account (www.instagram.com/lena_cdxd_bup) earlier today, and cleared my notifications,  messages and scrolled through my feed liking pictures etc, no trouble. Tried to log in again this afternoon to find that my account has been disabled, suspended and I can 'maybe' request a review in 24hours. No emails, no messages in fact no idea whatsoever as to what I have done wrong this time. Or is it just another gay persons account? There are photos of women posted all day every day that are far more revealing and sexual, barely hiding anything - tight/see through bra or bikini top, bikini or panties pulled into a tight camel toe.... leaning forwards showing full cleavage ... and more, all OK. But a gurly cd showing some bulge in her panties is to sexual and not allowed, really wtf!

Censorship at its best, in what is meant to be a country with freedom of speech and expression

 So, if you haveclicked on my IG link in any previous blog posts, tweets or any other format you will no doubt have noticed that it has been suspended, closed by the Instagram / Facebook police due to 'nude, suggestive or selling of sexual activities posts'

What did I do, I posted a picture in my underwear, it wasn't sheer, it wasn't to small to hide anything, it just showed my gurly bulge!

According to the reviewers it was pornographic content.

As many of you will have noticed, there are regularly thousands of pictures posted everyday on IG that barely cover a women's nipples let alone her entire boobs, or panties that are so small, so tight that a camel toes doesn't describe it, you can see the lips and often the clitoris poking into the material, nude shots of them sitting back to the camera or side on with arm across the boobs.

Yes these are ok, and don't get me started on the celeb pics - so what is different?

I am a gurly crossdresser, a gay guy in panties.... not a professional account, just me. 

I am infuriated that even when you appeal, they only select 'random' cases to review - how is it a fair and open system if they chose which appeals to even look at?

Don't get me wrong, I am all for protecting the youth, protecting innocent people and in fact everyone from exploitation and abuse. But that should surely mean that the protection applies to all, that everyone is treated equally and to the same standards, that is all I ask for, all i want, all i would hope for and expect.

Anyway, this rant was caused by seeing this picture on IG, been there this 2019, and by far not the worst

And yet, this pic of me was removed as to sexually graphic, not reinstated at review and appeal not actioned! And got my account banned.

Gurly crossdresser tuckback in panties

As a gurly crossdresser, you may have noticed LOL, i am trying to perfect the art of a tuckback - which at times is difficult, not just because of my gurly boi clitty (cock to you) but because thong panties aren't always the best to hold it back n down and they are my favourite and most commonly worn style of panties.

Anyway, i do have a few pairs of lace boyshorts, some victoria secrets boyshorts n tight thongs, and i am getting better n better at it.

In simple terms, i am trying to just tuck n hold without any tape etc, although i do intend getting more practice at taping my cock back. So, i pull my sack n cock back between my legs, pull up the panties n position them over my tucked cock, estimating where i need my bits to be in the panties once pulled up, with a bit of pull n tighten room. Then one handed hold the panties to my dick and with the other pull up the panties, tight n high up my ass then the front to secure my tuckback.

this gives a smooth, cock bulge, free front - perfect for tight skirts or leggings, and i have to admit it does feel rather good tucked n tightly held, it feels very very sexy hehe.

i am getting much better, making my gurly cock semi hard helps as it gives more to pull back, but what i do need to master is popping my testicles back up into their canals, like before they dropped - any tips n hints on how to do this easily would be great!

i have also added a pair of 'camel toe' gaff thong panties to y amazon wishlist, if you want to treat me - or to a Victoria Secrets gift card / panties (and bra's in 34 or 36DD hehe)

Not just the sex toys, the all important lube must be reviewed as well!

I have started writing reviews of some of my sex toys, and how much fun they are / I have had with them. But to enjoy them to their fullest, after all they are pretty much all anal toys, you must have lube.

So my first lube review, is of the amazing, slippery and great feeling ID Glide from @IDLube.

They do a wide range of lube's, from the water based Glide, through flavoured lubes and onto the top of the range silicone lubes.

So far I have tried the Glide, and loved it, as well as a couple of sample pouches of their flavoured lubes.

Oh my god, the glide certainly lives up to its name. It comes in various pack sizes, and is very cost effective - it may appear expensive but you don't need much for a long lasting slippery ride - as I found out.

It is easy to use, simple and quick to apply and long lasting, and if it does start to dry simply re-activate it with a bit of water (and YES this can be spit, it doesn't have to be tap water). As it is water based, safe to use with all of your rubber / silicone toys and condoms.

Even though very slippery, and reacts with water, it is still easy to wipe up and clean away - I even used a couple of baby wipes to clean my butt cheeks and toys, as well as my butthole.

As to the ride, it is slippery, smooth and enjoyable - makes it easy to take and enjoy toys of various sizes. For any of you that have watched my shows / viewed my video's or pictures on YouKandy or Chaturbate, you will have witnessed that with a small amount of this lube, and very little preparation and practice time, I can take my ass destroying monster dildo into my butthole - so far I have worked nearly half of it up my ass, leaving me stretched, gaped and happy - slippery and open, without any pain or discomfort during or after the show.

So would I recommend it, most definitely yes - it is a wonderful lube, and when I need to re-stock I will be heading to my favourite adult store, Vibez Adult Boutique, to buy a big 5L bottle of the wonderful stuff!

Rating - 10 / 10

                                         

saucy, horny, normal or slutty...

If you follow my Twitter you will know that I am a cross dresser, and one that is generally very horny, loves cock and cum and enjoys many aspects of the gay / sissy lifestyle including glory holes, random anonymous sex, dressing - in private and starting to go out more in public, and gay sauna's. On top of this I am quite active on the camshow scene, hosting my own shows on Chaturbate, Cams and YouKandy - not as often as I want, but hope to get to do more soon.

After having a great conversation on Twitter this morning, I am just asking you opinion - and I will be posting this as a poll on my Twitter profile page as well.

Bit of background. I was watching some gay webcam shows last night - involving, oral sex, anal sex and toys. Great cumshot in one that the guy swallowed and slurped it all up.

This obviously got me rather aroused, stroking myself and ended up riding one of my dildo's balls deep in my ass - posted a comment on twitter saying going to bed after a good dildo ride.

Woke up this morning, and my butthole was pulsating wonderfully (ladies - your pussies may feel / do the same after a good fuck / dildo session, but you will have to tell be that one LOL). And I was rather aroused thinking about my ass n one thing led to another, stroking n looking around for some relief. First thing I saw, and closest, that was a suitable size n weight was a bottle of drink that I had taken to bed with me - sports drink not alcoholic lol. So I tweeted, feeling horny only thing to hand was a bottle and led to conversation admitting I had fucked my ass with the bottle, and enjoyed it a lot.

Have you ever felt / done the same - when you are horny anything will do as a dildo - with your pussy / ass?

Does it make me:

• Normal horny guy
• Saucy n dirty guy
• Slutty

What do you think?

Let me know

Lena x

                                             

dogging and glory holes... fact or fantasy

I am a 'fairly' horny gurly, well some times incredibly horny and slutty LOL

Thing is, I love cock, I love cum... I love sex - and I am pretty sure I am not the only one. And, I really enjoy the thrill of anonymous, random and public sex too.

I mean, when I go to my local gay sauna, ME1 in Rochester, Kent, I have absolutely no problems walking round stark naked, towel in my hand or over my shoulder. I happily go down on guys I see and give there cocks a good old suck, swallow their cum, and have my arse fondled, fingered and fucked - all in full view of anyone else that is in the various rooms / walking by the lounges.

So, back to topic.

Years ago, and more recently, when I made the 2nd step - I was already wearing panties everyday by this point - I went to local glory holes at motorway service toilets, and other various public toilets around the area. Here I wanked another guy for the 1st time, sucked my 1st cock, swallowed my 1st load of cum and even got my arse fucked by a guy for the 1st time - all through a hole in a toilet wall - don't know who they were, I just enjoyed their cock's.

Moved on from this to a bit of public flashing / exhibitionism - went to a local glory hole / criusy toilet block in Strood (Kent) - no longer there, behind the shops in the car park (now Asda I think). Anyway, here I stood at the urinals, jeans open showing my thong panties, suspender belt and stockings - and a stiff cock getting stroked. I got myself well n truly fucked in the cubicles more than once - with the door open and closed (with about 6 guys in the adjoining cubicles looking over the top hehe. It was great.

Also went to cruisy toilets / glory hole in Aylesford - at Cobtree Park. Again, had plenty of fun at urinal and in the cubicles - although I have yet to enjoy myself in the woods - apparently plenty of action out in the woods, sucking n fucking... sounds wonderful.

And, this also used to be a good dogging spot at night. I went there many times, and another location near the Dartford crossing, on the Kent side.

Thing is - over the years these have all been stopped, closed / knocked down etc - as they are 'trouble spots' causing trouble in local area etc. Hands on heart I can say that I NEVER felt scared, pressured or had / saw any trouble - verbal or physical - and that's with my panties down and cocks in various parts of my body - easy target for gay / queer abuse!

I have tried visiting several, no joy -

   the toilets on A2 Cobham (south bound) no longer exist.
   toilets in Strood behind shops no longer exist
   toilets at coach park in Rochester - never seems be any action anymore
   Dartford dogging spot - I have tried various days / nights and never seen anyone there
   Cobtree park - toilets 'upgraded' to stop the glory hole action and gates locked at night!

point of this, I really, really, really want to go glory hole and dogging again, and enjoy some random anonymous sex - yes I know to be careful, I always have lube n condoms in the car.

So, does anyone know what is happening in Kent? Are any of these locations (or others) still active. Please let me know if they are, or about others, or any good websites I can register on and find out what is happening.

If you don't want to comment here for your own identity protection, or so big brother doesn't see / find out - email me, visit my website and contact me or text me (textphone only it doesn't take calls) 07522 221980.

You only have to look at my website, my YouKandy profile, my Twitter or Chaturbate to see that I am a genuine sissy, gurly, crossdresser just looking for lust :)

Lena xx

So excited.....

I am soooo excited, just checked and the website I saw the #OhMiBod Vibe 2.0 on has them back in stock !

Needless to say I was straight on and ordered myself one, and an extra bottle of lube - just in case LOL

Now, I can't wait to get it... the days till it arrives are going to seem never ending, and then I am guessing the wait till I can try it will just be hell - I house share with a str8 guy, he is fine with me being a gay #crossdresser, I think I have blogged about how he, and his gf, washed my #panties  #skirts etc and doesn't have a problem with my wandering round the house in #lingerie or #leggings etc etc. But he does draw the line at me playing with toys in front of him, he he saw me once with a #dildo up my #ass n has said it doesn't offend him, just not want to see it - but I can keep trying as he is kinda cute hehe

Anyway, I digress. The #OhMiBod will be mine, and I can do cam shows on Cams.com and / or Chaturbate. Maybe even a new site I have found, but not cam'd on yet - Play with me

Anyway, this is getting me a bit hard in my Boux Avenue panties, so off to 'calm down'


                

Weekend Fun

I had a great time last night, well into this morning actually LOL

It was a cold frosty evening / night, and i didn't get to going out with mates or on the pull.

What i did do was make the most of having some time home alone and got online doing a cam show on my favourite site - Cams.com

Cum check me out, watch my shows - I do FREE shows dressed, or just in my panties & a little vest. Or fully nude shows. These can be open to anyone or private just for you!

In nude, you get all of me and can ask for anything you want!

last night, or maybe this morning, i was naked, fingering and dildoing my ass! And of course wanking my shaven cock.

I was ready to blow my load, just after some guyz / girlz to tip me and then I would show my cum lol.

But none of them had the credits/tokens, so i still need to cum!

If you think that sounds fun, cum watch me - or become a model yourself - Models wanted on Steamray

Lena xx

valentines fun

i had a great time on cam this morning, chatting n flirting with guys all over the world that i have never met before... they just loved my ass in my lace boyshorts!

i was on my fav website - steamray, doing a live cam show as a internet model, freshly rolled outta bed in my little vest n lace boyshort panties..

 

 

So cum n join me and watch one of my webshows on Cams, have some fun n enjoy my ass, cock n more... i love to toy myself n moan for you hehe

 

Or maybe, join me as a new model yourself and make some cash

looking for a tranny shop

As you may be aware I love to cross dress, and i now want to expand my wardrobe with the addition of a pair of boots. but, being a guy with big feet it isn't easy. we used to have a shop in Strood, Kent that catered for all transvestite, cross dresser and most fetish needs. But they closed down and now we have nothing... unless anyone knows otherwise. does anyone know of a cross dressing / transvestite shop in Kent that sells clothes, boots, and toys etc, at reasonable prices? if so please email me as I am dying to go shopping

fetish dirty used pantie gay / cross dresser website

Got up early on my day off, sitting here in a nightie n thong panties (hehe), trying to get my fetish pantie sale site nearer completion.

So here is the latest attempt.

Need some hits, some feedback and idea's.

At the moment I have put links up to specific panties for sale, not sure whether to change it to generic ones - were it just shows a selection of pictures of me and my panties and then gives the options available. Or to stick to specifics and update as sold?

Any thoughts?

Any orders? LOL please check me and them out, buy what you like.. discretion guaranteed!

Paypal payment and delivered under plain packaging.

Dirty, worn, used smelly panties for sale

Also available are my worn stockings, hold ups and DVD's of my pictures / video clips