The simple joy from Jo Thornton's breast form adhesives

 As any long term follower will know, my journey started as a 'normal straight man' (if they exist) and slowly developed into the gurly MtF / trans crossdresser that is me now (and a much, much happier me)

Along the way I discovered the joy of breast forms in my bra instead of socks, water balloons or anything else that came to hand.

My DD's feel so amazing, and that joy has been enhanced by the discovery of sticky disc's & strips that are designed to hold breast forms to skin, not boob tape as that is for clothing, but something designed to hold these silicone marvels in place yet let them bounce n jiggle like real boobs.

So, my initial venture was just for thin strips, and it took several to hold the weight of DD's just in some bra's, let alone a looser bikini top or nothing. This led to a period of joy, but also disappointment as I wanted more. More security of the form, more movement and in turn more pleasure.

Upon browsing Amazon initially, and then directly to the Jo Thornton website, I found that there were also round disc adhesive pads as well, in 2 sizes. And so the next phase of my journey started, and last year I was outside sunbathing in my triangle top thong / Brazilian bikini's and felt so secure, and oh boy so happy.

I have found they work best of

• you follow Jo Thornton's instructions, i.e. fix the disc/strips to the breast form at least 3-5 mins before sticking to your chest (they often work better if the breast form is at body temperature as well as it sometimes helps the adhesive to take hold.
• Wear them with a bra initially, give them some support whilst they stick to your skin
• Have either some surgical spirit, rubbing alcohol or a medical adhesive removal spray to hand when you take them off. It helps unstick them from your skin, and the surgical spirit / rubbing alcohol on a cotton wool pad can remove any sticky residue on your skin. And, these products can help remove them from the breast form (be careful, test and take it slowly as per Jo's instructions to minimise the risk of damaging the breast form - but they still won't last for ever. I am on my third set in 10 years)

My next, and latest, step was to add some wider strips, after all DD's do weigh over 800g each!

Now having the three options, 11cm discs, thin and wide strips I have been experimenting with different combinations and layouts to see what fits and works the best. 

If you follow me on X, BlueSky or Instagram you will have seen recent posts where I am totally enjoying the freedom of having my 'boobs' on all night, without the need for a supporting bra or bodysuit, letting them move freely and naturally under a satin camisole nightie. I spend most nights with them attached, and am loving the way they feel when you move, when you lay on your side or on your front and the weight shifts n squishes... so wonderful.

These are from me at 07:40 this morning (03rd March 2026) having had them attached since 9pm the night before. 

And a video of them bouncing, jiggling and pulling as I bend over / lean forwards

Now, I can hardly wait to enjoy the freedom of them moving in my bikini's and swimsuit as I enjoy the sunshine. Hurry up summer in the UK!

Even a boring men's t shirt can look amazing with a bra & boobs underneath

 As my followers will know, I am very much a gay crossdresser, you only have to look at my free Twitter, let alone my OnlyFans or new ManyVids profiles to find that out LOL

I have been a fulltime panties wearer for over 25 years now, and every chance I get I am in a bra + DD breast forms, and women's clothes from skirts, jeans, dresses or leggings. And maybe in tights, thigh high hold ups or stockings.

But, on this day, my point is that even though I had to be in a boring mens top (work video calls), with careful camera and sitting angles I could still have a bra & DD breasts underneath, still feel gurly and fem. And, if I am honest I was quite surprised how good it looked, what do you think?

How are my little gurly tiddies doing? update (03 Nov 2022) & advice please!

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shopping experience in 2022

I was under the belief, maybe misguided belief, that we had moved forward over the last few years and away from stereotypical attitudes.

I was doing some food shopping in a big, well known British supermarket and as I walked past their clothing section decided to go and look at the lingerie, and maybe some summer linen trousers (I really want a new pair of white linen trousers, just see through enough to be saucy but not improper, well maybe just a little bit naughty too lol). 

I am looking for a new bra and panty set, maybe more than one, in A/AA size, lace or sheer without padding etc. so I can wear under anything as my titties slowly grow. Sometimes visible through tops and other times hidden, depending on how confident I am feeling and location / company.

Anyway, as I browsed the lingerie section, seeing a few that I liked and picking them up to get a better look, and at least 2 or 3 times see if they had my size (36 A or AA). It was after putting back one bra, I hadn't even picked up any panties yet, that I noticed a member of staff watching, an older lady, just standing watching me. As I moved around she followed, stopping every time I did and then moving with me, always keeping me in sight.

I will be honest and say this really annoyed me, infuriated, and I was tempted to confront her and / or see a manager, but it was late and I just wanted to get home - point to note as well is that this was just a few days before Valentines Day, a time of year I am sure there are millions of men (haha) looking at lingerie for their wives, girlfriends, mistresses and more. As well as crossdressers, bisexuals and gays buying new underwear for themselves and/or partners.

She continued to follow me as I looked at linen trousers and only stopped when i returned to the main grocery part of the store. 

As she didn't approach me, ask if I needed any help or to check if a size I wanted was in stock, I can only presume that she was watching as I was a male looking at bra's and panties, maybe her generation wouldn't have done such a thing but she works in a modern store so should be aware that times have changed, and if not she is in the wrong job.

She had no way of knowing which category I fell into, I wasn't in a skirt, dress or any obvious female clothes (unless I had shown my thong when bending down to look at racks of bra's) but in jeans and a t shirt, perfectly ordinary clothes. And, it shouldn't matter - I was a customer looking to make a purchase, whilst shopping, and in 2022 it most definitely should NOT matter which group I was in - in so many ways it was just wrong.

After leaving, and driving home (without any new lingerie or trousers) I wished I had asked to see a manager, complained and made my feelings known. I am not easily offended or put off, and have been lingerie shopping for myself for over 20 years so not bothered by stares or giggles, but others may or will be offended, upset and put off exploring them own world, their own needs and happiness.

Just wrong in this day and age.

Rant over for today

Can you tell, just by looking?

NO, I am not asking if you can tell at a glance, if a person is trans or not, if they are hiding (or not) a boiclitty cock.

I am talking about clothes. I often answer the door and go out wearing women's jeans, and anyone that wears them knows the main difference from the front.

From the rear, the shape and way women's jeans cup, support or highlight your ass n butt cheeks is so much better than men's jeans, they give your ass shape, tight coverage and look sexy as hell.

But from the front, do you know / can you tell at a glance if the person in front of you is wearing men's or women's jeans?

They both have pockets, zips n buttons - but the zip / button fastenings open from the opposite direction

Men's jeans have the opening, and flap covering the zip from the right, and women's from the left - don't believe me, have doubts - go check.

I love wearing women's jeans, not just because I am a crossdresser or that I want people to notice, but also because they look better and are much more comfortable to wear, I would always chose women's jeans if I have the option.

If you have a wife, girlfriend, significant other or even sister and are similar in size, go try them on - it doesn't make you gay, gurly, sissy, trans, a crossdresser or any combination - just try them and let me know in the comments how they feel, how they make you look and feel better and hotter (in a sexy way LOL).

The difference on Social Media of being gurly, trans, trap, mtf, CD etc compared with straight

 I was chilling with a friend recently, a straight male that is just a friend, not a FWB or anything else, just a good mate. 

As we were waiting for Netflix to load (in the end it didn't it stuck at 76% and would do no more, no matter what we tried!). Anyway, that isn't this story...

Whilst we were waiting he was scrolling through his Instagram, something I can't do as I was banned and my account removed for posting photos that showed a bulge in the front of my panties, no flesh just a bulge, which is I believe quite normal?

As he reached the end of his followed feed updates and heading into the 'suggested' one caught our attention, different reactions but for the same reason.

It was a picture that very, very clearly showed a woman lying down, with some fabric covering her breasts (not a lot) and that was it, naked all the way down to the very obvious clear camel toe of her pussy.

Obviously his reaction was wow, mine was more 'are they taking the piss'

We discussed, and he agreed that the standards applied to the various gender / sexuality posts on some social media, namely Facebook and Instagram, are totally unbalanced, this got worse when we looked at the rest of the pictures! A whole collection of camel toe pictures and video clips, you get even more if you search for #cameltoe - that is how difficult it would be for the moderators to check!

Anyway, later that night I set up a gmail account and created a new profile, as a straight male, and reported the photo.... outcome - not removed as we don't have time / resources to review all of the reported images. Now, I get this but do wonder how they had time to review and delete every post that I made that showed a panty bulge. I reported it again, same result... having looked today it has now been removed, but the account is still active with plenty more similar images and video clips, take a look yourself - account is Cameltoeville

Am I being overly angry and cynical, or does this yet again proof the gender / sexuality bias of Instagram?

chance to dress as a women, crossdressing heaven

I have really enjoyed this week,  I have had the opportunity- time and freedom, even though working I have had less video calls than usual so been able to be female all over, rather than just below the waist n putting bra, breadt forms and womens top on between calls.

I have enjoyed the feeling of being in womens clothes, loved the look and feel of having boobs - the way clothes are pushed out on my DD's as well as the weight n movement of the breasts themselves. It still makes me smile, just being dressed, even in plain simple leggings and t shirt, nothing fancy or sexy, just being in womens clothes. To put it simply, being in womens clothes is relaxing, its happiness, its just right!

I have varied what I have worn, from low rise jeans (these feel amazing, I would wear them all the time if I could, they are comfy, practical yet a little naughty n sexy too. Also mini skirts, a dress n yoga pants. Mixed in with various womens t shirts and tops.

And of course, as well as panties I have had bra's on, sometimes a matching set others just any bra that came to hand. Looking down, seeing the push of my DD's against the tops, the peaks that push out from my chest,  god I wish they were real n mine everyday. 

Oh, n I have worn stiletto heels most days too, on my feet for anything from 2 or 3 hours up to about 7 hours - bliss! Hearing them click on the wooden floor or outside on the patio slabs / concrete path when doing recycling or taking a break from sitting in front of a laptop. They should be compulsory for everyone that isn't an alpha male hehe, convert everyone tk gurliness. 

So, all in all been a wonderful week thatbi have enjoyed, felt myself and been happy. Lets hope I get more time next week to do the same.

And of course, I have taken pics that are on my twitter and other sited / pages - visit my Link Tree for all my genuine links. 

Femme Enhance - Pills for Breast Enlargement, for Women and for Men (Product Review) Updated 11/09/2021

 I have been doing exercises to try and tone up my ass, give me a curved waist / hipline and to hopefully grown some boobs, get myself some gurly mtf tiddies!

I have also been looking at several supplements that are meant to help, and have been reading the product reviews and descriptions repeatedly for months now. So, last week I took the plunge, added a new one to my Amazon Wishlist (Qty 5+) and ordered a pack before I could change my mind. This is the Femme Enhance - Pills for Breast Enlargement. 

They arrived quickly, in fact on the first day of the delivery window advised when I ordered, in plain packaging that didn't give any hint / idea of what was inside - so as far as speed and discretion go - 10/10.

Having read the information on the product page, and then the slips in the pack, I took 4 measurements, as a starting guide - Hip, Waist, Bust (under boob area) and Cup (across nipples), and took my first pill. Obviously it's a bit early to expect any changes as I am only on day 2, but I will be taking measurements every week and will update / post new blogs as I go.

It is also worth noting, and only fair, that the instructions do say that some people (I am guessing more men that want to grow boobs from basically nothing) may need to take 2 a day (normal does is 1) and it may require 2 packs (60 days at 1/day or 30 at 2/day) to see noticeable changes.

Initial views, product and description match, well packaged and discrete packaging. Instructions are clear and the pills are easy to take, no adverse effects or anything to report so far.

Lets hope I get some tiddies to share and play with.

24/07/2021 - Update

Week One has ended, so time for an update.

I am going to start off with an excerpt from an email I sent to the vendor, as due to Amazon's rule that you can't leave a review unless £40+ has been spent on your account in the previous 12 months - not sure what the amount spent has to do with being able to give an honest review, but I am sure Amazon knows best!

Anyway, I sent them a link to my first post, and this is from their wonderful reply:

What prevents you from increasing your dosage to the higher level of 2 or sometimes even 3 pills per day is the possibility of premenstrual type symptoms.

Since phytoestrogens are similar to estrogens, it is entirely possible that when you take these pills you may feel at higher dosages PMT like effects - bloating slight headache etc.

If you do not experience these, then you can increase your dosage without problems and results happen even faster.

The thing to do is experiment. I am sure that you will succeed however.

So pleased that they replied.

Anyway, I have had no side effects that I have noticed, happily continuing to take the whole supply, and hopefully more after that too. I am so glad I have decided to try, and if needs be hopefully give me the confidence to go on and get hormone therapy, and grow a gurly body - shapely, curved, hairless n with boobs!

As to my measurements, nothing has changed so far, hips, waist bust n boobs the same, but it has only been 7 days.

Here's to another 7 days and another update 

30/07/2021

So, end of the 2nd week of taking these supplements. I have to say, still easy to do and no problems.

As to any changes, the important bit.

Visually, when I look down at my chest my little tiddies do look slightly bigger, a bit puffy and poking out a bit more, squidgy or squishy may be a better way if describing it. Not a huge change, certainly not a cup size change, but they look better and more pronounced to me, still too much hair on my chest though! And, my nipples are definitely more sensitive. Previously rubbing, touching, pinching etc had no effect. I didn't feel any sensation and they didn't harden. Whereas  now I do feel sensations n get excited and aroused when playing with them and they harden n poke out more - and I love it! 

My measurements (that yes I know I still need to share). Hips and waist no change, but a slight change in my chest (under tiddies) and across my tiddies for the cup size. Only about 0.1-0.2" but still a change, hopefully next week its the same or more!

06/08/2021

Apologies, I forgot to post an update on Friday, for the end of week 3. Still feel ok, no problems with the tablets at all. Looking at myself, I think I can see more definition in my little, well tiny, tiddies. They look to have a slightly more defined shape, a squishy roundness and definitely sensitive nipples! Oh my are they getting more fun. They get hard to the touch, and make me feel sooo good. I have even noticed myself getting a nipple on, pokies, from friction between my top n flesh, I am really, really enjoying that I can tell you. 

As to size, again slight changes in my under boob and cup measurements and this week in my hips too. Now, I am not getting excited, even though this is the second week I have seen changes in chest measurements, this could just be me not doing it in the same place/way so u am going to try to be more observant of this as I measuee from now on, maybe look in the mirror to try and match week on week. 

And, as a sign of my happiness at the possible changes, even though it may be me, I have ordered my 2nd box, so will be going into 1 2nd month and beyond, if some of my fans /followers feel nice maybe they could buy me some or donate and I will up the dose to 2 tablets a day and see if that speeds up the changes, I really hope so. The way I feel today, I would gladly and happily take estrogen hrt or a 'transformation' pill to get a curvier waist n hips and bigger boobs x

One question I do have, and tbh I haven't checked if they are meant to - not seen any changes in chest/nody hair yet x

13/08/2021

So, week 4 - My 2nd order has arrived already, so I have enough pills for another 30 days (at 1 per day), unless I increase the dose to see if my tiddies grow quicker.

Visually, they are puffy and look more defined, with nice sensitive nipples. I have found myself massaging (or fondling) my little tiddy bumps and it feels very good, before starting these pills I had never been one for playing with my nipples, or having them played with - I didn't mind but they just didn't react in anyway. I like it now! Hopefully it may help them grow too.

Measurement wise, just a small change in the hip / waist ratio, not enough to give me womanly curves but I can dream. Tiddies wise, again slight changes but I am happy and want to keep trying.

More next week!

20/08/2021 - week 5 update

I am not sure what I can say, other than that I am fine and my little tiddies are clearly more defined and puffy, very sensitive and soft to the touch - which made it difficult to measure, I need to pracive NOT squishing my tiddies to try and get a true guide as to size and growth. 

No side effects, just me feeling good and hoping that my boobs grow!

27/08/2021

Another week has gone by, and if I am being honest I would say that my tiddies look puffier and rounder, more defined and easily show as little tiddies, and I am proud of them. I also feel gurlier in myself, whether that is just wishful dreaming who knows, but I am happy with it.

As to measurements, hips and waist are the same, but there are slight changed to my bust n cup size. Across my very sensitive puffy nipples I appear to have grown, only by about 0.2" but it looks like growth, and I am sooo happy. Obviously I am going to keep taking the pills, and am now seriously considering taking 2 per day to see if I get a faster reaction n change to them x x 

04/09/2021

Gonna start this week's update with the usual feelings, looks etc and then add a 2nd bit.

So, my tiny little tiddies are soft, puffy and appear rounder, and the sensitivity of my nipples has increased again, god it's so wonderful hehe.

I have started to massage (well play) with my tiddies at least once everyday, i Know - such hardship hehe. 

As to measurements, my hip/waist ratio seems to be improving, only small changes but if it continues it will give me a wider hip and curvier waist profile, and what gurly doesn't want that!

Tiddies, it may just be the way i am measuring but again looks like a small increase in both my bust (under boob) and cup (across my nipples) measurements. So all good.

But, as I only have 1 strip of 10 pills left, I went to order some more, only to find that they are no longer available. I looked in a couple of places but couldn't find the same ones (unless I wanted to pay £50 for 30 tablets that is from a 3rd party seller not the original so no guarantee they are actually the same).

I will keep looking, but so I don't run out and maybe lose any hormone balance changes that I may have achieved, I have also ordered another brand - So once I start them I will start a new blog - only fair on them both. But, if i can get more of these going forward, I will.

06/09/2021 - Update

I haven't been able to get any more of these tablets, and they are still showing as no confirmed date of restock/availability.

So, I have looked around and ordered another type, made in the UK with good reviews, and a great price /offer.

As to my Femme Enhance, I have enough left to double up this week, so 2 tablets per day, and end them on Friday- day of my next measurement and tiddie check.

I will then start the new ones from Saturday, and a new review/blog update post.

11/09/2021 - Update

So today i took my last Femme Enhance Pill, I have looked on Amazon and a few other sites, but still none available unless I want to pay way to much (£30-£50 for 30 tablets).

Anyway, looking in the mirror and down at my chest, I am convinced my little tiddies are more defined, rounder and plumper than before i started these tablets, and without any doubt my nipples are more sensitive than ever.

Measured myself, small changes but the right kind, and still no side effects.

I will post a table of my measurements for you all to see, and comment on if you desire too

Lena x

How biased and discrimanatory is social media

 No matter how much the social media platforms keep saying they are equal, support all genders, sexual preference and religions etc etc, fully behind LGBTQ / LGBTQ+, in practice its not.

I promised myself I wouldn't rant about the blatant preference and discrimination towards some gender types / sexual identifications.

Last week I tried to post 2 photos to my Instagram Account, and within seconds it was removed as it 'breached the guidlines on nudity and sexual content'.

Before i share the photo, bear i mind I have panties on, they are not sheer or seethrough in anyway, they are not so tight they clearly define and outline my boiclitty cock, which is not hard and obviously a cock. I do not promote any sexual activity, promotion or anything but myself.

I requested a review, which took several hours, and surprise surprise it was still removed for the Nudity and sexual content. I have appealed, but don't expect to get it even looked at (Instagram / Facebook say they get too many appeals to look at the all so just select a few to look at - totally fair system) as I am not a famous person or influencer with many thousands of followers. I am just me, trying to share and hopefully help others that are starting or on the journey of crossdressing, recognising that they are trans or coming out.

Going through my feed yesterday the following images popped up, they have been viewed by thousands, and have substantially more followers than me, but I am sure this has no bearing at all.

I am sure you can see, clearly see, why I am annoyed - very clear sexual content, very clear sexual organs in an aroused state and clear genitals, but both of these photos are OK - and this is a fair system?

Pardon my language, and tbh i am past caring if IG ban me again, but this is total bollocks. 

14/09/2021

Yet again Instagram, and Facebook, have shown their bias.

I logged into my IG account (www.instagram.com/lena_cdxd_bup) earlier today, and cleared my notifications,  messages and scrolled through my feed liking pictures etc, no trouble. Tried to log in again this afternoon to find that my account has been disabled, suspended and I can 'maybe' request a review in 24hours. No emails, no messages in fact no idea whatsoever as to what I have done wrong this time. Or is it just another gay persons account? There are photos of women posted all day every day that are far more revealing and sexual, barely hiding anything - tight/see through bra or bikini top, bikini or panties pulled into a tight camel toe.... leaning forwards showing full cleavage ... and more, all OK. But a gurly cd showing some bulge in her panties is to sexual and not allowed, really wtf!

Censorship at its best, in what is meant to be a country with freedom of speech and expression

 So, if you haveclicked on my IG link in any previous blog posts, tweets or any other format you will no doubt have noticed that it has been suspended, closed by the Instagram / Facebook police due to 'nude, suggestive or selling of sexual activities posts'

What did I do, I posted a picture in my underwear, it wasn't sheer, it wasn't to small to hide anything, it just showed my gurly bulge!

According to the reviewers it was pornographic content.

As many of you will have noticed, there are regularly thousands of pictures posted everyday on IG that barely cover a women's nipples let alone her entire boobs, or panties that are so small, so tight that a camel toes doesn't describe it, you can see the lips and often the clitoris poking into the material, nude shots of them sitting back to the camera or side on with arm across the boobs.

Yes these are ok, and don't get me started on the celeb pics - so what is different?

I am a gurly crossdresser, a gay guy in panties.... not a professional account, just me. 

I am infuriated that even when you appeal, they only select 'random' cases to review - how is it a fair and open system if they chose which appeals to even look at?

Don't get me wrong, I am all for protecting the youth, protecting innocent people and in fact everyone from exploitation and abuse. But that should surely mean that the protection applies to all, that everyone is treated equally and to the same standards, that is all I ask for, all i want, all i would hope for and expect.

Anyway, this rant was caused by seeing this picture on IG, been there this 2019, and by far not the worst

And yet, this pic of me was removed as to sexually graphic, not reinstated at review and appeal not actioned! And got my account banned.

Constant removal or posts from social media sites, yet others are allowed

 I said a few days ago on my IG and Twitter that I was going to post on here, to have a rant about the unfair, and seemingly targeted, removal of posts / blocking of posts on Instagram.

Yes, I get that they have updated their Terms of Use and Social responsibility policies, but it is getting stupid, and seems to be unfairly applied according to the gender / sexual group you associate with.

As you will know, I am a gay gurly crossdresser. As such I love lingerie, dressing in womens clothes, sex toys and cock - lots of toys n cock.

I recently posted a picture of my ass, and it was instantly blocked and removed as breaching the guidlines - it didn't even get posted for anyone to have reported it, so it is the IG censorship.

Yes, I can see why it 'could' appear as if I am naked, but is it offensive? Is it showing any of my shaved bits or butthole? No.

And, I am not naked, I am wearing a pair of red C String Panties, you just can't see them in this picture. And, if I had shown the panties I am certain it would have been removed anyway, as a lace c string doesn't hide much...... what do you think?

Yes, as a very gurly, very gay crossdresser I may be biased, but I have had several posts removed in the same way, I have asked for a review - no change and not ONE of them has been selected to be looked at on appeal (the way their system works is that a random selection of appeals are selected for review, not all, so it is pot luck if your appeal happens to be selected). 

And what makes me mad, makes me risk being banned by IG (again) is that there are many, many posts by women that are far more sexual, far more revealing and yet don't breach any regulations around content.

Below are a couple that I have taken screenshot's of from my feed, there are lots more to chose from, and please, please tell me if you think I am wrong - that certain groups are targeted and treated unfairly and with unequal controls and requirements.

Rant over, for now

Lena

 

                                        

what is so difficult to understand!!!

I quite happily admit that I am a gurly crossdresser, a cock loving bottom. I am an anal slut, cock loving, fuck my ass n mouth, cum swallowing whore at times. I am prone to taking very large things in my ass, stretching & pushing my limits, wanting to train my mind n butthole to accept more n more, deeper and wider. On top of this I like to take pictures and video clips as well as do live cam shows, so a bit of an exhibitionist (outdoor's fun is fine with me too). 

But nowhere, not on my Twitter, my Instagram, my Onlyfans, my website or here on my blog... no where does it say I am  sissy or a slave, 9n fact it says I am NOT one. So why, oh why, do I keep getting messages from ppl wanting me as their siaay slave - is reading beyond their basic abilities, or just unable to comprehend that a gurly CD cock slut isn't the same as a sissy / sissy slave.

Such a thrill, going out to Adult Store dressed fem n gurly

If you have read my previous blog, on the latest and wonderful addition to my anal toy collection, you will know that last Thursday, 05th December 2019, i visited my favorite Adult Sex Shop - Vibez Adult Boutique store, originally intending just to buy some delay / numbing spray for my butthole. But, more importantly I had shared on my twitter feed the night before that i wanted to go dressed fem n gurly, with pics of options that i was considering - heeled ankle boots (that make a magnificent sound as you walk in them), female low rise hipster jeans, some sexy lace panties (of course) and a choice of grey or peach / pastel orange top, with / without bra n whether to also have my DD fake boobies in as well.

So the evening of the 5th arrived, and on the way home from work i stopped at a relatively discrete place - in the entrance gate to a field but it was clearly visible from the adjacent M20, even more so as there was a street light opposite where i stopped. Here i stripped out of a boring suit n tie, slipped on the hipster jeans and ankle boots and i went for the grey t shirt, a bit less fem but more see through, but no bra or boobies (which i soon regretted!). So dressed i got out of the car to wiggle my ass in the jeans and get them nice n low, after all why wear lace panties of not to show them off, and put man clothes in the back of the car. I then headed off towards Aylesford and Vibez - btw it feels so good driving in these boots with their heel, not ready to drive in stiletto heels yet.

Upon arriving at Vibez, i did have a few nerves as there were several cars in the spaces and didn't want to be ridiculed, slipping a fleece on as comfort blanket. Anyway, i headed in, heels clicking loudly on the concrete outside then store floor. And it felt fantastic.

As i entered i was immediately greeted by the son of the owners, who are always so welcoming and put you at ease. We chatted for a while, and as we did so i could hear a man/women couple browsing behind me and they could clearly see my boots and panties, if not knowing the jeans were female ones. I was loving it! After probably 5 mins chatting i started to browse, looking around and seeing some wonderful toys (one of which ended up in my hands later to buy n ride as soon as i could).

So, as i wandered around i got more n more confident and could feel my jeans riding low n panties high as i bent to look at products and walked around, admiring the toy selection, bondage gear and the  the dress up out fits, dresses and lingerie - oh my they have some yummy bra / pantie sets, panties, corsets n dresses with a new range coming 2020 too. I was feeling so good, the fleece came off and i proudly walked round as a gurly(ish) customer - getting told that next time i should come as fem as i wanted, boobs, wigs, skirt or whatever i wanted to wear!

I headed back to the 1st toys i had viewed, picked up the Destructor buttplug and some delay spray, heading to the till and paid as chatted about xmas n stuff.

As i left i put my purchases in the car and had to take some photos, as proof, and to share - here they are.

I felt so exhilarated, such a rush and release and so relaxed, confident and happy. smiling as i drove home, still dressed female x x

  

  

    

It's been a while, guess i better catch up

It has been a while since i last posted a blog, and i am sorry for that - life has just been so busy, and never enough time in a week let alone a day, no excuse i know but i am sticking to it for now.

So, firstly to follow on from my last post regarding public flashing of my panties n bits, out in fields, roads and car parks - next to add is local country parks too.

I really have become addicted, and it gives an amazing thrill as u strut around, pose and be naughty all in full view of anyone that may come past and catch you - i have taken pictures of me in panties, high heels, dressed as a gurl and naked walking around and in one video clip very nearly got caught by a car full of lads - late teens or early twenties at a guess. I was in just panties and then naked, who knows how it would have gone if they saw me! I would like to hope that they would either shout abuse or stop and give me their cocks, all their cocks in  both holes as many times as we could go at it lol. But, sadly, in today's society had to be wary in case they gay / gurly bashed me. I wanted to flash my slutty butthole n get some action, but common sense won over.

Anyway, also went for a walk in high heels, skirt, tights etc and wandered around a local hill carpark / dog walking / walking area. yes it was at night, but i really enjoyed it, and even gave my ass a little dildo fuck in the middle of one of the paths hehe

What else, taken pics, started a new model website where you can buy my pictures and videos, soon be selling worn panties etc on there too. And trying to build up a premium snapchat as well - been busy.

I will post again later, gotta go to work but i am feeling the overwhelming desire to sit on a dildo first lol

Thrill of posing for photos and videos, wearing just panties or naked, in public

I have taken odd photos in public before, in car parks, lay-bys and wooded areas, but recently i have stepped it up a few levels, and oh my god - i love it.

It's so exciting, thrilling, exhilarating and arousing.

Over the past few years i have taken planned photos, crossdressed or in various states of undress, pictures of me posing in heels n skirts, stockings and panties.

A few months ago i took some pics as i walked home one night, then again a few days later stripping down to my panties.

And now, over the past 4 weeks, after going out for drinks with friends i have stopped at the side of the road, again stripped to my panties and taken photos and videos as i walk down the road, even nearly getting caught by some guys driving pasts.

To be honest, if i had not been alone, if i had had a friend as a photographer i would have let them see my ass in panties, see if they would stop n give me some cock.

Hopefully my 'photographer; would give me his too, in the mouth and up my ass over the bonnet of the car, over the barriers n kneeling on the center line hehe

I have uploaded some of the pics to my Chaturbate profile, and now on my new Fansite - on Modelcentrino

Hope you enjoy them as much as i did taking them, and more to come

Gurly crossdresser tuckback in panties

As a gurly crossdresser, you may have noticed LOL, i am trying to perfect the art of a tuckback - which at times is difficult, not just because of my gurly boi clitty (cock to you) but because thong panties aren't always the best to hold it back n down and they are my favourite and most commonly worn style of panties.

Anyway, i do have a few pairs of lace boyshorts, some victoria secrets boyshorts n tight thongs, and i am getting better n better at it.

In simple terms, i am trying to just tuck n hold without any tape etc, although i do intend getting more practice at taping my cock back. So, i pull my sack n cock back between my legs, pull up the panties n position them over my tucked cock, estimating where i need my bits to be in the panties once pulled up, with a bit of pull n tighten room. Then one handed hold the panties to my dick and with the other pull up the panties, tight n high up my ass then the front to secure my tuckback.

this gives a smooth, cock bulge, free front - perfect for tight skirts or leggings, and i have to admit it does feel rather good tucked n tightly held, it feels very very sexy hehe.

i am getting much better, making my gurly cock semi hard helps as it gives more to pull back, but what i do need to master is popping my testicles back up into their canals, like before they dropped - any tips n hints on how to do this easily would be great!

i have also added a pair of 'camel toe' gaff thong panties to y amazon wishlist, if you want to treat me - or to a Victoria Secrets gift card / panties (and bra's in 34 or 36DD hehe)

Unexpected sex can be so much fun ...

If you joined me on my Chaturbate cam show earlier today, you will know I was talking about my very wet, lubed up and fucked butthole after a casual encounter in a local public toilet!

My day started normally. got up n slobbed around a bit in leggings n t shirt till I showered, shaved my bits n popped in a buttplug. Slipped on a pair of red lacy thong panties, and then boring man clothes over the top.

After this, headed out to town to get a few bits I needed.

Whilst out I slowly felt my metal jewelled buttplug start to slip around and new that my ass was self lubing with some tasty buttjuice. I was going to ignore it till got home, enjoying the sensations as it slipped around inside me and in / out a bit too, but decided I could do with a pee as well.

So, headed off to a set of public toilets in the shopping centre, at about 12.30-13.00. Paid my 20p and went to a cubicle planning on having my pee whilst I pulled out my buttplug n wiped a bit of juice off.

Well, I love the smell of cock when released from underwear, even my own, and added to this the scent of my hot butthole juice as I pulled the plug out just got me very very aroused.

So much so that I sucked my butt juice off the plug, and feeling even hornier couldn't resist a little buttplug fuck of my ass hole, which was already sloppy n wet and starting to gape a bit hehe.

i happily slammed it in & out of my ass for a bit, trying hard not to moan like a slutty whore, much as i wanted too. I was so engrossed i didn't notice that the urinals / sinks outside the cubicles had gone quiet and emptied out of people, except one guy who quietly knocked on my cubicle door, asking if Iwanted a hand, or something hard, to help me get off!

Well, not one to turn a gift cock away I opened the door n let in a fairly hot guy, prob early to mid 30's.

He pushed me back and shut the door beind him, looking over me - panties down by my knees and a buttplug in my ass, and wasted no time in unzipping his jeans and dropping them to the floor, kicking them off without a care. I could see his big hard cock bulging in his tight shorts, and made him moan as I ran my hand along his shaft from balls to bellend, before opening the top and breathing in his hot cock scent - and that was it, i had to have him - in my mouth and arse.

It was about 15 seconds later that i was kneeling, pulling down his shorts n catching is bobbing stiffy in my mouth, slobbering all over him as i sucked him in deep, running my tongue all over him as I savoured his manly flavour. I could only stand this for a couple of mins at most, i wanted him in my arse.

I stood, turned and pulled my plug out as i bent over the toilet bowl, hoping he would plunge right in - but he was a careful, and prepared guy, and reached for his jeans to get a condom (saying sorry as he rolled it down his shaft) and a small tube of lube!

Well, needless to say he lubed n plunged right in, pushing his red bellend into my semi open and wet hole, enjoying it as much as me (i hope) as he popped the head in, held it before slowly pushing into me. This made me hornier than ever, and i wanted him hard deep n rough by now, and he soon obliged, proceeding to bang balls deep into me, and god i had to bite down not to let out lustfilled groans n moans. He was still listening out for others, and slowed his pace whenever the outer door opended to let someone in- they may have wanted to watch or join in, but could have told on us too as this wasn't a normal cruisy toilet pickup n sex area.

This went on for what seemed like ages, but was probably 20 mins or so, and the slowing down added to my lust and excitement as well as the intense pleasure i was getting. But too soon for my liking, his balls swelled and he thrust deep in and held it there as he unloaded, sadly into a condom not my ass.

Not being one to waste cum, once he pulled out i turned, on wobbly legs, and pulled the condom off, holding it into my mouth with one hand to suck the cum out whilst stroking his cock with the other. Once i had drained the condom, i leant down and sucked n licked his cock clean of any cum dribbles.

After that he smiled, said thanks, grabbed his jeans and left me there, door open with my panties down by my ankles. Hoping for more i left the door open as i put my plug back in my butthole, pulled my panties up n then my jeans slowly. But no futher takers or interest.

After that i finished my shopping n came home, going on cam n showing my dripping, obviously used n abused lube filled butthole to the viewers.

It may be wet, but i had a fun day

Today started out quite nicely, sun was shining and not to much wind... and the fact that I was wearing a skimpy pair of thong panties and had a jewelled metal buttplug in too.

Did a few things around the house, and headed out to the garden to see what needed doing, continuation of the pre winter tidy up!

And then it started to rain! Hoped it would only be a quick shower, so kept going, till I admitted it was not going to stop (and I was a bit wet LOL) and headed inside.

So, now I needed to amuse myself, which of course led to me fucking my ass with my buttplug, and then a ball and a bottle (slutty me reappeared LOL)

It was all very nice, and I ended up with rather a wet hole on a wet day haha.

In fact, several hours later I am still a bit wet, just rubbing my ring gets my hole open n dripping (not that I would do that of course haha :) )

Anyway, I really will get round to doing my next sex toy review, maybe even when I have drunk my coffee!

decided to try reviewing my sex toys, starting with.......

so, I have decided I will write some reviews of my adult / sex toys, n probably my women's clothes as well.

may as well share my experiences n knowledge n so help others get some pleasure too x

I will probably start with what I hav in / on now - my large metal jewelled buttplug from vibez adult store, or my sailor thong panties xx

check back later today to find out

Lena xx

Poll results are in... am I Normal, Saucy, Dirty or plain Slutty?

After a few comments on my Twitter, I uploaded a post here (previous one to this) talking about how I had been rather horny, and ended up using a plastic drink bottle (initially new then filled with water) to satisfy my anal cravings.. and did this make me normal, saucy, dirty or slutty.

So, I posted a poll on my twitter page, pinned to the top for all my visitors to see.

It was open for 3 days, and I received just 44 responses - from nearly 18,000 followers - so not a high response rate :(

Anyway, the winner is - I am SLUTTY :) Voted by 59% of you.

Saucy          2%
Normal       16%
Dirty           23%
Slutty          59%

I have actually taken it as a compliment, I know I enjoyed myself, I know that I am gaining the confidence to be free and open about my sexual preferences and needs, open enough to talk about loving sex toys and what lube I use / like. And I have had several wonderful chats with the staff / management at my local adult store - Vibes Adult Boutique. These talks have really increased my self confidence, and trust in others - I hope to get a few new naughty photos taken in the store when I am shopping... butt plug shopping selfie sounds fun, or even just another one flashing more of my panties.

So I am happy to be slutty at times, I don't have any problems behaving in such a way in private, or in suitable public ways - i.e. on a camshow.

And dirty wasn't a high %, does this reflect that peoples views and acceptance are changing?

Anyway, have fun - enjoy being whatever you want to be and have a great day playing with your sex toys - I know I do / will!

Lena xx