shopping experience in 2022

I was under the belief, maybe misguided belief, that we had moved forward over the last few years and away from stereotypical attitudes.

I was doing some food shopping in a big, well known British supermarket and as I walked past their clothing section decided to go and look at the lingerie, and maybe some summer linen trousers (I really want a new pair of white linen trousers, just see through enough to be saucy but not improper, well maybe just a little bit naughty too lol). 

I am looking for a new bra and panty set, maybe more than one, in A/AA size, lace or sheer without padding etc. so I can wear under anything as my titties slowly grow. Sometimes visible through tops and other times hidden, depending on how confident I am feeling and location / company.

Anyway, as I browsed the lingerie section, seeing a few that I liked and picking them up to get a better look, and at least 2 or 3 times see if they had my size (36 A or AA). It was after putting back one bra, I hadn't even picked up any panties yet, that I noticed a member of staff watching, an older lady, just standing watching me. As I moved around she followed, stopping every time I did and then moving with me, always keeping me in sight.

I will be honest and say this really annoyed me, infuriated, and I was tempted to confront her and / or see a manager, but it was late and I just wanted to get home - point to note as well is that this was just a few days before Valentines Day, a time of year I am sure there are millions of men (haha) looking at lingerie for their wives, girlfriends, mistresses and more. As well as crossdressers, bisexuals and gays buying new underwear for themselves and/or partners.

She continued to follow me as I looked at linen trousers and only stopped when i returned to the main grocery part of the store. 

As she didn't approach me, ask if I needed any help or to check if a size I wanted was in stock, I can only presume that she was watching as I was a male looking at bra's and panties, maybe her generation wouldn't have done such a thing but she works in a modern store so should be aware that times have changed, and if not she is in the wrong job.

She had no way of knowing which category I fell into, I wasn't in a skirt, dress or any obvious female clothes (unless I had shown my thong when bending down to look at racks of bra's) but in jeans and a t shirt, perfectly ordinary clothes. And, it shouldn't matter - I was a customer looking to make a purchase, whilst shopping, and in 2022 it most definitely should NOT matter which group I was in - in so many ways it was just wrong.

After leaving, and driving home (without any new lingerie or trousers) I wished I had asked to see a manager, complained and made my feelings known. I am not easily offended or put off, and have been lingerie shopping for myself for over 20 years so not bothered by stares or giggles, but others may or will be offended, upset and put off exploring them own world, their own needs and happiness.

Just wrong in this day and age.

Rant over for today

The difference on Social Media of being gurly, trans, trap, mtf, CD etc compared with straight

 I was chilling with a friend recently, a straight male that is just a friend, not a FWB or anything else, just a good mate. 

As we were waiting for Netflix to load (in the end it didn't it stuck at 76% and would do no more, no matter what we tried!). Anyway, that isn't this story...

Whilst we were waiting he was scrolling through his Instagram, something I can't do as I was banned and my account removed for posting photos that showed a bulge in the front of my panties, no flesh just a bulge, which is I believe quite normal?

As he reached the end of his followed feed updates and heading into the 'suggested' one caught our attention, different reactions but for the same reason.

It was a picture that very, very clearly showed a woman lying down, with some fabric covering her breasts (not a lot) and that was it, naked all the way down to the very obvious clear camel toe of her pussy.

Obviously his reaction was wow, mine was more 'are they taking the piss'

We discussed, and he agreed that the standards applied to the various gender / sexuality posts on some social media, namely Facebook and Instagram, are totally unbalanced, this got worse when we looked at the rest of the pictures! A whole collection of camel toe pictures and video clips, you get even more if you search for #cameltoe - that is how difficult it would be for the moderators to check!

Anyway, later that night I set up a gmail account and created a new profile, as a straight male, and reported the photo.... outcome - not removed as we don't have time / resources to review all of the reported images. Now, I get this but do wonder how they had time to review and delete every post that I made that showed a panty bulge. I reported it again, same result... having looked today it has now been removed, but the account is still active with plenty more similar images and video clips, take a look yourself - account is Cameltoeville

Am I being overly angry and cynical, or does this yet again proof the gender / sexuality bias of Instagram?

How biased and discrimanatory is social media

 No matter how much the social media platforms keep saying they are equal, support all genders, sexual preference and religions etc etc, fully behind LGBTQ / LGBTQ+, in practice its not.

I promised myself I wouldn't rant about the blatant preference and discrimination towards some gender types / sexual identifications.

Last week I tried to post 2 photos to my Instagram Account, and within seconds it was removed as it 'breached the guidlines on nudity and sexual content'.

Before i share the photo, bear i mind I have panties on, they are not sheer or seethrough in anyway, they are not so tight they clearly define and outline my boiclitty cock, which is not hard and obviously a cock. I do not promote any sexual activity, promotion or anything but myself.

I requested a review, which took several hours, and surprise surprise it was still removed for the Nudity and sexual content. I have appealed, but don't expect to get it even looked at (Instagram / Facebook say they get too many appeals to look at the all so just select a few to look at - totally fair system) as I am not a famous person or influencer with many thousands of followers. I am just me, trying to share and hopefully help others that are starting or on the journey of crossdressing, recognising that they are trans or coming out.

Going through my feed yesterday the following images popped up, they have been viewed by thousands, and have substantially more followers than me, but I am sure this has no bearing at all.

I am sure you can see, clearly see, why I am annoyed - very clear sexual content, very clear sexual organs in an aroused state and clear genitals, but both of these photos are OK - and this is a fair system?

Pardon my language, and tbh i am past caring if IG ban me again, but this is total bollocks. 

14/09/2021

Yet again Instagram, and Facebook, have shown their bias.

I logged into my IG account (www.instagram.com/lena_cdxd_bup) earlier today, and cleared my notifications,  messages and scrolled through my feed liking pictures etc, no trouble. Tried to log in again this afternoon to find that my account has been disabled, suspended and I can 'maybe' request a review in 24hours. No emails, no messages in fact no idea whatsoever as to what I have done wrong this time. Or is it just another gay persons account? There are photos of women posted all day every day that are far more revealing and sexual, barely hiding anything - tight/see through bra or bikini top, bikini or panties pulled into a tight camel toe.... leaning forwards showing full cleavage ... and more, all OK. But a gurly cd showing some bulge in her panties is to sexual and not allowed, really wtf!

Censorship at its best, in what is meant to be a country with freedom of speech and expression

 So, if you haveclicked on my IG link in any previous blog posts, tweets or any other format you will no doubt have noticed that it has been suspended, closed by the Instagram / Facebook police due to 'nude, suggestive or selling of sexual activities posts'

What did I do, I posted a picture in my underwear, it wasn't sheer, it wasn't to small to hide anything, it just showed my gurly bulge!

According to the reviewers it was pornographic content.

As many of you will have noticed, there are regularly thousands of pictures posted everyday on IG that barely cover a women's nipples let alone her entire boobs, or panties that are so small, so tight that a camel toes doesn't describe it, you can see the lips and often the clitoris poking into the material, nude shots of them sitting back to the camera or side on with arm across the boobs.

Yes these are ok, and don't get me started on the celeb pics - so what is different?

I am a gurly crossdresser, a gay guy in panties.... not a professional account, just me. 

I am infuriated that even when you appeal, they only select 'random' cases to review - how is it a fair and open system if they chose which appeals to even look at?

Don't get me wrong, I am all for protecting the youth, protecting innocent people and in fact everyone from exploitation and abuse. But that should surely mean that the protection applies to all, that everyone is treated equally and to the same standards, that is all I ask for, all i want, all i would hope for and expect.

Anyway, this rant was caused by seeing this picture on IG, been there this 2019, and by far not the worst

And yet, this pic of me was removed as to sexually graphic, not reinstated at review and appeal not actioned! And got my account banned.

Constant removal or posts from social media sites, yet others are allowed

 I said a few days ago on my IG and Twitter that I was going to post on here, to have a rant about the unfair, and seemingly targeted, removal of posts / blocking of posts on Instagram.

Yes, I get that they have updated their Terms of Use and Social responsibility policies, but it is getting stupid, and seems to be unfairly applied according to the gender / sexual group you associate with.

As you will know, I am a gay gurly crossdresser. As such I love lingerie, dressing in womens clothes, sex toys and cock - lots of toys n cock.

I recently posted a picture of my ass, and it was instantly blocked and removed as breaching the guidlines - it didn't even get posted for anyone to have reported it, so it is the IG censorship.

Yes, I can see why it 'could' appear as if I am naked, but is it offensive? Is it showing any of my shaved bits or butthole? No.

And, I am not naked, I am wearing a pair of red C String Panties, you just can't see them in this picture. And, if I had shown the panties I am certain it would have been removed anyway, as a lace c string doesn't hide much...... what do you think?

Yes, as a very gurly, very gay crossdresser I may be biased, but I have had several posts removed in the same way, I have asked for a review - no change and not ONE of them has been selected to be looked at on appeal (the way their system works is that a random selection of appeals are selected for review, not all, so it is pot luck if your appeal happens to be selected). 

And what makes me mad, makes me risk being banned by IG (again) is that there are many, many posts by women that are far more sexual, far more revealing and yet don't breach any regulations around content.

Below are a couple that I have taken screenshot's of from my feed, there are lots more to chose from, and please, please tell me if you think I am wrong - that certain groups are targeted and treated unfairly and with unequal controls and requirements.

Rant over, for now

Lena