shopping experience in 2022

I was under the belief, maybe misguided belief, that we had moved forward over the last few years and away from stereotypical attitudes.

I was doing some food shopping in a big, well known British supermarket and as I walked past their clothing section decided to go and look at the lingerie, and maybe some summer linen trousers (I really want a new pair of white linen trousers, just see through enough to be saucy but not improper, well maybe just a little bit naughty too lol). 

I am looking for a new bra and panty set, maybe more than one, in A/AA size, lace or sheer without padding etc. so I can wear under anything as my titties slowly grow. Sometimes visible through tops and other times hidden, depending on how confident I am feeling and location / company.

Anyway, as I browsed the lingerie section, seeing a few that I liked and picking them up to get a better look, and at least 2 or 3 times see if they had my size (36 A or AA). It was after putting back one bra, I hadn't even picked up any panties yet, that I noticed a member of staff watching, an older lady, just standing watching me. As I moved around she followed, stopping every time I did and then moving with me, always keeping me in sight.

I will be honest and say this really annoyed me, infuriated, and I was tempted to confront her and / or see a manager, but it was late and I just wanted to get home - point to note as well is that this was just a few days before Valentines Day, a time of year I am sure there are millions of men (haha) looking at lingerie for their wives, girlfriends, mistresses and more. As well as crossdressers, bisexuals and gays buying new underwear for themselves and/or partners.

She continued to follow me as I looked at linen trousers and only stopped when i returned to the main grocery part of the store. 

As she didn't approach me, ask if I needed any help or to check if a size I wanted was in stock, I can only presume that she was watching as I was a male looking at bra's and panties, maybe her generation wouldn't have done such a thing but she works in a modern store so should be aware that times have changed, and if not she is in the wrong job.

She had no way of knowing which category I fell into, I wasn't in a skirt, dress or any obvious female clothes (unless I had shown my thong when bending down to look at racks of bra's) but in jeans and a t shirt, perfectly ordinary clothes. And, it shouldn't matter - I was a customer looking to make a purchase, whilst shopping, and in 2022 it most definitely should NOT matter which group I was in - in so many ways it was just wrong.

After leaving, and driving home (without any new lingerie or trousers) I wished I had asked to see a manager, complained and made my feelings known. I am not easily offended or put off, and have been lingerie shopping for myself for over 20 years so not bothered by stares or giggles, but others may or will be offended, upset and put off exploring them own world, their own needs and happiness.

Just wrong in this day and age.

Rant over for today

Can you tell, just by looking?

NO, I am not asking if you can tell at a glance, if a person is trans or not, if they are hiding (or not) a boiclitty cock.

I am talking about clothes. I often answer the door and go out wearing women's jeans, and anyone that wears them knows the main difference from the front.

From the rear, the shape and way women's jeans cup, support or highlight your ass n butt cheeks is so much better than men's jeans, they give your ass shape, tight coverage and look sexy as hell.

But from the front, do you know / can you tell at a glance if the person in front of you is wearing men's or women's jeans?

They both have pockets, zips n buttons - but the zip / button fastenings open from the opposite direction

Men's jeans have the opening, and flap covering the zip from the right, and women's from the left - don't believe me, have doubts - go check.

I love wearing women's jeans, not just because I am a crossdresser or that I want people to notice, but also because they look better and are much more comfortable to wear, I would always chose women's jeans if I have the option.

If you have a wife, girlfriend, significant other or even sister and are similar in size, go try them on - it doesn't make you gay, gurly, sissy, trans, a crossdresser or any combination - just try them and let me know in the comments how they feel, how they make you look and feel better and hotter (in a sexy way LOL).

The difference on Social Media of being gurly, trans, trap, mtf, CD etc compared with straight

 I was chilling with a friend recently, a straight male that is just a friend, not a FWB or anything else, just a good mate. 

As we were waiting for Netflix to load (in the end it didn't it stuck at 76% and would do no more, no matter what we tried!). Anyway, that isn't this story...

Whilst we were waiting he was scrolling through his Instagram, something I can't do as I was banned and my account removed for posting photos that showed a bulge in the front of my panties, no flesh just a bulge, which is I believe quite normal?

As he reached the end of his followed feed updates and heading into the 'suggested' one caught our attention, different reactions but for the same reason.

It was a picture that very, very clearly showed a woman lying down, with some fabric covering her breasts (not a lot) and that was it, naked all the way down to the very obvious clear camel toe of her pussy.

Obviously his reaction was wow, mine was more 'are they taking the piss'

We discussed, and he agreed that the standards applied to the various gender / sexuality posts on some social media, namely Facebook and Instagram, are totally unbalanced, this got worse when we looked at the rest of the pictures! A whole collection of camel toe pictures and video clips, you get even more if you search for #cameltoe - that is how difficult it would be for the moderators to check!

Anyway, later that night I set up a gmail account and created a new profile, as a straight male, and reported the photo.... outcome - not removed as we don't have time / resources to review all of the reported images. Now, I get this but do wonder how they had time to review and delete every post that I made that showed a panty bulge. I reported it again, same result... having looked today it has now been removed, but the account is still active with plenty more similar images and video clips, take a look yourself - account is Cameltoeville

Am I being overly angry and cynical, or does this yet again proof the gender / sexuality bias of Instagram?

chance to dress as a women, crossdressing heaven

I have really enjoyed this week,  I have had the opportunity- time and freedom, even though working I have had less video calls than usual so been able to be female all over, rather than just below the waist n putting bra, breadt forms and womens top on between calls.

I have enjoyed the feeling of being in womens clothes, loved the look and feel of having boobs - the way clothes are pushed out on my DD's as well as the weight n movement of the breasts themselves. It still makes me smile, just being dressed, even in plain simple leggings and t shirt, nothing fancy or sexy, just being in womens clothes. To put it simply, being in womens clothes is relaxing, its happiness, its just right!

I have varied what I have worn, from low rise jeans (these feel amazing, I would wear them all the time if I could, they are comfy, practical yet a little naughty n sexy too. Also mini skirts, a dress n yoga pants. Mixed in with various womens t shirts and tops.

And of course, as well as panties I have had bra's on, sometimes a matching set others just any bra that came to hand. Looking down, seeing the push of my DD's against the tops, the peaks that push out from my chest,  god I wish they were real n mine everyday. 

Oh, n I have worn stiletto heels most days too, on my feet for anything from 2 or 3 hours up to about 7 hours - bliss! Hearing them click on the wooden floor or outside on the patio slabs / concrete path when doing recycling or taking a break from sitting in front of a laptop. They should be compulsory for everyone that isn't an alpha male hehe, convert everyone tk gurliness. 

So, all in all been a wonderful week thatbi have enjoyed, felt myself and been happy. Lets hope I get more time next week to do the same.

And of course, I have taken pics that are on my twitter and other sited / pages - visit my Link Tree for all my genuine links. 

Nuke Nutrition - Femme Boost. Breast growth / enlargement supplements for girls, guys, trans and everyone else too (Product Review) - updated 08/05/2022

 So, I started a new brand of breast enlargement supplements on Saturday 11/09/2021, Nuke Nutrition - purchased from eBay at a great price, and with multi buy discounts too

The description matched what I was looking for, with good feedback and reviews. So, I ordered 2 packets, so 120 tablets - 1 per day, giving me 4 months to add on to the 2 I have already completed on Femme Enhance (see previous review). And they are manufactured in the UK, not of interest to me as I love my 'meat' to much but suitable for Vegans too.

I have completed my 1st week, all feeling good, with some puffy little tiddies, I am guessing (and in fact hoping) they are like a teenage girls as she goes through puberty into womanhood - that is what I after all, even if a bit later in life and I have a boiclitty n balls in my panties

w/e 24th September 2021

End of 2nd week of taking this supplement. No obvious side effects, not feeling ill, strange, sick, dizzy etc or any of the usual listed side effects.

In myself, I feel good, I feel relaxed and settled - which is always good, although I know I need to get back into my exercise regime - squats, leg thrusts etc as well as step and the old chest improving exercises (I must, I must, improve my bust hehe).

Physically, waist n hips seem to be the same, ratio hasn't changed although, as I have said, not really been exercising much for last couple of months and really need to get back into it. 

Looking down, I have defined puffy little tiddies, that I am hoping will firm up and grow, they look and feel amazing, sensitive and so gurly.

01/10/2021

Been taking these a couple of weeks now, my little tiddies are puffy n bouncy, they jiggle around when I prod them or shake / jump around and I am addicted to the feeling and watching them lol. According to measurements no real difference, although I think I may change from inches to cm & mm as that may be easier to detect the small changes. Anyway, feeling great, feeling gurly n hoping they grow, I get a curvy figure n less body hair would be good to.

09/10/2021

I have decided to move these updates to Saturday, makes it easier for me to measure and update you wonderful people.

This week, I can clearly see a more puffy, pronounced breast shape - not saying I have sprouted tits, I should be so lucky! But little tiddie buds lol puffy, soft to the touch and the best bit - they jiggle n wobble, if not bounce, as i shake them- couldn't stop smiling at something so simple!

16/10/2021

Another good week, loving looking at my little tiddy buds. I have shaved the chest hair off of them - hoping that the body hair starts to lessen as i take more of these supplements, but they look so puffy n little gurly - happy

23/10/2021

I think I may have missed a day this week, just found a tablet in my pocket - so gonna have 2 today to make up for it! I have changed the way I measure, well the units - to cm/mm as easier to identify small changes - like the fact that I think my boobie cup measurement has gone up by 2mm this week.

Anyway, feeling good, feeling gurly and having fun

06/11/2021

Not sure what happened to last weeks update, can't have saved it!

Anyways, feeling great, loving that my puffy little tiddies are definitely looking more defined, and soooo sensitive. Last week, and again this week, changing to measuring in mm/cm rather than inches has made it better, and over both weeks I can see a week on week growth of my boobie cup, it may only be in mm, but it is still gurly growth!

13/11/2021

I have opened my2nd packet now, still taking one tablet a day. Feel great, and my puffy little tiddies are slowly growing, and i am hoping i will soon start getting a curvy hip/waist and lost some body hair - fingers crossed. Measurements do suggest I am slowly growing tits, natural tits!

2022

Have to firstly apologies for not posting any updates since November 2021. Could say too busy, Christmas.. blah blah... but, yes I have been busy but still should have posted.

I have finished my first 2 packs, and ordered 4 more, so enough to take me through for a full year on these supplements from Nuke Nutrition.

No problems, I feel great and personally I can see that my little tiddies are clearly defined and poking out, with perky little nipples that are 100% more sensitive than ever before. I love it. Need to check my measurements and see if the sizes show any small changes too

May 2022

I keep forgetting to update this, and i have also not been measuring my little tiddies.

But, I can clearly see that I know HAVE small tiddies, that are soft and squidgy, wobble n bounce and i love them. I want bigger tits! I promise to pose an update, with measurements and a photo very soon, Lena xxx

I realise I haven't posted an update on here about these breast growth pills, so sorry and I will - or start a new thread about how my little tiddies are growing. They look like they are, but I haven't measured them in months... so, we will all see together

Lena xxxxx

Buying worn panties, generic or pair specific?

 This may seem like a strange question, but hey - everyone that reads my blog knows I may be just a 'little' bit of a perverted anal slut lol

As you have hopefully seen on my twitter, Instagram, Onlyfans, Chaturbate, FanCentro or the latest site I am try - Justfor Fans (Don't worry about trying to save / remember all of these links - just use my Linktr.ee and it has everything all in one place!) I like to sell my worn, dirty and smelly, stained panties - thong, boyshort or bikini, as well as a picture DVD and all of my photos / video's in stand alone / bundle packs.

Anyway, my weird question - do you prefer, or not care, if the used panties are sold from one 'generic' picture, or for each pair to have an individual listing so that you can see what is on offer?

I am thinking of trying out making a Etsy store page, or maybe using Webnode? Or maybe shifting everything to Fansly or a similar adult site

Any thoughts, preferences or ideas always gladly welcomed as well as interest in buying my items, supporting me to buy more fem clothes and sex toys to play with, make content and live cam shows.

OnlyFans - wtf is going on!

 Any of you that follow my Twitter or Instagram feeds will know that I have an OnlyFans (NOT ANYMORE - just Fansly and ManyVids, Chaturbate) page, where I have so far uploaded / posted over 7600 images and video clips - all of me whether dressed as a gurl, a slut or cheap whore, just in lingerie, naked or playing with various types of toys and objects - I like it in the ass hehe.

I offer a 21 day FREE trial for all NEW followers, and a range of discounted subscription packs for everyone (with special offers at random times to loyal followers as well).

I do live feeds, live shows as I chill, chat n usually play. And there are tens of thousands of us, that use this as a way that amateur (as well as professional) sex workers can make some extra cash at the same timeas giving the public access to us and our content.

We have made the owners of OnlyFans incredibly rich with the 20% commission they take off of everything we make, that is a LOT of money for hosting a site that has been developed a long time so repaid that investment.

Now, to make it more appealing to mainstream advertisers and income sources, they are going to ban and remove all adult sexual content, they say that this doesn't mean nudes and lingerie etc, just sexual activity - well we know how that went with Instagram don't we. I am always getting pictures removed, some re posted but most not, for sexual content when all I have posted is my bare ass or my panty bulge - there are FAR more sexual and revealing pictures allowed every hour from the so call influencers and mainstream (i.e. not gay, tranny, crossdressing types) accounts, but that is for another rant lol

So, in a nutshell they are kicking most of us off of their platform. There are becoming less and less options for us sex workers, of any kind or experience, to share our content and make a living - I bet OnlyFans made a fucking fortune during lockdown with everyone at home bored and watching / buying the content available. 

Rather than stand up to the prudes who say there shouldn't be any porn sites or adult material available on the web (have we gone full circle back to the days when the headline was that porn (wank) mags would ruin the world and destroy society?) and maybe, just maybe invest and refine the software that ensures that only age appropriate people can see the content? No, that would be to public spirited wouldn't it, as online porn is ruining everyone (nothing to do with drugs, drink and tobacco!). Shouldn't the public have a choice? Be able to choose to look at, download, watch, wank/ strum / fuck to our content if they want to? We don't make them pay or do it, it is a choice they have made, but everyone suffers for the prudes to get what they want by using big companies, media outlets and politicians to do their buidding.

What a wonderful FREE world we live in!

So, under pressure OnlyFans have back tracked and are no longer going to bann adult content. They say its due to payment providers changing what they will allow/support, or is it more likely that public opinion was against them and they realised what they stood to lose?

UPDATE - due to the constant removal of posts, blocking or large toys etc (even those designed and shaped like a huge cock) I have closed my OnlyFans

should UK sex shops be more like US / European stores?

If you follow any of my social media profiles, you will know that I live my local adult/sex store (Vibez Adult Boutique) and could spend so much time, and even more money, buying some of there wonderful sex toys, outfits and lingerie.

But, and thus is in no way a criticism of them or other UK based sex / adult stores, reading some articles, blogs and posts about those in the US and mainland Europe, they offer much more in the way of personal / intimate services.

From glory hole booths, porn film viewing and even rooms for sex. In many customers can be semi or completely nude, posing and playing with themselves and toys in full view of anyone and everyone that wants to look or watch.

Now, I am not saying we should open them up as seedy sex arena's, but the booths and being able to pose in some of their products / outfits or even your own does sound fun

I would happily visit the booths n give oral relief through the glory holes, with or without porn. And, it is no secret, that I would love to pose in the store for photo's, in and amongst the displays, over the counter, on my knees... you get the picture lol In my own lingerie or clothes, or in some i had or would purchase, or again I would be happy to pose with and using some of the sex toys, lingerie, bdsm or outfits for them to use as promo material on their website n socials (discrete of course). But we aren't allowed- our laws don't allow a legal seller of butt plugs, for example, to show prospective purchasers HOW they are meant to be used. We all know of friends or followers that are to shy and so innocent that they would need guidance and instructions, some of us were/are or would be just as unknowing about some items that you can buy inshore or online. By showing them it would increase sales and I would imagine make things safer for users - not having to rely on Google searches and videos that may not be accurate or safe to copy!

Just a thought, and personal opinion. Many adult stores may not agree with or want to do these type of things, or others, but should they have the option? 

how old are your panties?

 I have recently realised that many of the pairs of undies in my rather full panties drawer have been around for several years.

Made me start to think.

Am I holding on to them for too long? Should I be binning them more often?

Or, do most people havbe at least some of their panties that are starting to fray, to lose shape, holes starting to appear in the lace?

How old are you panties?

Femme Enhance - Pills for Breast Enlargement, for Women and for Men (Product Review) Updated 11/09/2021

 I have been doing exercises to try and tone up my ass, give me a curved waist / hipline and to hopefully grown some boobs, get myself some gurly mtf tiddies!

I have also been looking at several supplements that are meant to help, and have been reading the product reviews and descriptions repeatedly for months now. So, last week I took the plunge, added a new one to my Amazon Wishlist (Qty 5+) and ordered a pack before I could change my mind. This is the Femme Enhance - Pills for Breast Enlargement. 

They arrived quickly, in fact on the first day of the delivery window advised when I ordered, in plain packaging that didn't give any hint / idea of what was inside - so as far as speed and discretion go - 10/10.

Having read the information on the product page, and then the slips in the pack, I took 4 measurements, as a starting guide - Hip, Waist, Bust (under boob area) and Cup (across nipples), and took my first pill. Obviously it's a bit early to expect any changes as I am only on day 2, but I will be taking measurements every week and will update / post new blogs as I go.

It is also worth noting, and only fair, that the instructions do say that some people (I am guessing more men that want to grow boobs from basically nothing) may need to take 2 a day (normal does is 1) and it may require 2 packs (60 days at 1/day or 30 at 2/day) to see noticeable changes.

Initial views, product and description match, well packaged and discrete packaging. Instructions are clear and the pills are easy to take, no adverse effects or anything to report so far.

Lets hope I get some tiddies to share and play with.

24/07/2021 - Update

Week One has ended, so time for an update.

I am going to start off with an excerpt from an email I sent to the vendor, as due to Amazon's rule that you can't leave a review unless £40+ has been spent on your account in the previous 12 months - not sure what the amount spent has to do with being able to give an honest review, but I am sure Amazon knows best!

Anyway, I sent them a link to my first post, and this is from their wonderful reply:

What prevents you from increasing your dosage to the higher level of 2 or sometimes even 3 pills per day is the possibility of premenstrual type symptoms.

Since phytoestrogens are similar to estrogens, it is entirely possible that when you take these pills you may feel at higher dosages PMT like effects - bloating slight headache etc.

If you do not experience these, then you can increase your dosage without problems and results happen even faster.

The thing to do is experiment. I am sure that you will succeed however.

So pleased that they replied.

Anyway, I have had no side effects that I have noticed, happily continuing to take the whole supply, and hopefully more after that too. I am so glad I have decided to try, and if needs be hopefully give me the confidence to go on and get hormone therapy, and grow a gurly body - shapely, curved, hairless n with boobs!

As to my measurements, nothing has changed so far, hips, waist bust n boobs the same, but it has only been 7 days.

Here's to another 7 days and another update 

30/07/2021

So, end of the 2nd week of taking these supplements. I have to say, still easy to do and no problems.

As to any changes, the important bit.

Visually, when I look down at my chest my little tiddies do look slightly bigger, a bit puffy and poking out a bit more, squidgy or squishy may be a better way if describing it. Not a huge change, certainly not a cup size change, but they look better and more pronounced to me, still too much hair on my chest though! And, my nipples are definitely more sensitive. Previously rubbing, touching, pinching etc had no effect. I didn't feel any sensation and they didn't harden. Whereas  now I do feel sensations n get excited and aroused when playing with them and they harden n poke out more - and I love it! 

My measurements (that yes I know I still need to share). Hips and waist no change, but a slight change in my chest (under tiddies) and across my tiddies for the cup size. Only about 0.1-0.2" but still a change, hopefully next week its the same or more!

06/08/2021

Apologies, I forgot to post an update on Friday, for the end of week 3. Still feel ok, no problems with the tablets at all. Looking at myself, I think I can see more definition in my little, well tiny, tiddies. They look to have a slightly more defined shape, a squishy roundness and definitely sensitive nipples! Oh my are they getting more fun. They get hard to the touch, and make me feel sooo good. I have even noticed myself getting a nipple on, pokies, from friction between my top n flesh, I am really, really enjoying that I can tell you. 

As to size, again slight changes in my under boob and cup measurements and this week in my hips too. Now, I am not getting excited, even though this is the second week I have seen changes in chest measurements, this could just be me not doing it in the same place/way so u am going to try to be more observant of this as I measuee from now on, maybe look in the mirror to try and match week on week. 

And, as a sign of my happiness at the possible changes, even though it may be me, I have ordered my 2nd box, so will be going into 1 2nd month and beyond, if some of my fans /followers feel nice maybe they could buy me some or donate and I will up the dose to 2 tablets a day and see if that speeds up the changes, I really hope so. The way I feel today, I would gladly and happily take estrogen hrt or a 'transformation' pill to get a curvier waist n hips and bigger boobs x

One question I do have, and tbh I haven't checked if they are meant to - not seen any changes in chest/nody hair yet x

13/08/2021

So, week 4 - My 2nd order has arrived already, so I have enough pills for another 30 days (at 1 per day), unless I increase the dose to see if my tiddies grow quicker.

Visually, they are puffy and look more defined, with nice sensitive nipples. I have found myself massaging (or fondling) my little tiddy bumps and it feels very good, before starting these pills I had never been one for playing with my nipples, or having them played with - I didn't mind but they just didn't react in anyway. I like it now! Hopefully it may help them grow too.

Measurement wise, just a small change in the hip / waist ratio, not enough to give me womanly curves but I can dream. Tiddies wise, again slight changes but I am happy and want to keep trying.

More next week!

20/08/2021 - week 5 update

I am not sure what I can say, other than that I am fine and my little tiddies are clearly more defined and puffy, very sensitive and soft to the touch - which made it difficult to measure, I need to pracive NOT squishing my tiddies to try and get a true guide as to size and growth. 

No side effects, just me feeling good and hoping that my boobs grow!

27/08/2021

Another week has gone by, and if I am being honest I would say that my tiddies look puffier and rounder, more defined and easily show as little tiddies, and I am proud of them. I also feel gurlier in myself, whether that is just wishful dreaming who knows, but I am happy with it.

As to measurements, hips and waist are the same, but there are slight changed to my bust n cup size. Across my very sensitive puffy nipples I appear to have grown, only by about 0.2" but it looks like growth, and I am sooo happy. Obviously I am going to keep taking the pills, and am now seriously considering taking 2 per day to see if I get a faster reaction n change to them x x 

04/09/2021

Gonna start this week's update with the usual feelings, looks etc and then add a 2nd bit.

So, my tiny little tiddies are soft, puffy and appear rounder, and the sensitivity of my nipples has increased again, god it's so wonderful hehe.

I have started to massage (well play) with my tiddies at least once everyday, i Know - such hardship hehe. 

As to measurements, my hip/waist ratio seems to be improving, only small changes but if it continues it will give me a wider hip and curvier waist profile, and what gurly doesn't want that!

Tiddies, it may just be the way i am measuring but again looks like a small increase in both my bust (under boob) and cup (across my nipples) measurements. So all good.

But, as I only have 1 strip of 10 pills left, I went to order some more, only to find that they are no longer available. I looked in a couple of places but couldn't find the same ones (unless I wanted to pay £50 for 30 tablets that is from a 3rd party seller not the original so no guarantee they are actually the same).

I will keep looking, but so I don't run out and maybe lose any hormone balance changes that I may have achieved, I have also ordered another brand - So once I start them I will start a new blog - only fair on them both. But, if i can get more of these going forward, I will.

06/09/2021 - Update

I haven't been able to get any more of these tablets, and they are still showing as no confirmed date of restock/availability.

So, I have looked around and ordered another type, made in the UK with good reviews, and a great price /offer.

As to my Femme Enhance, I have enough left to double up this week, so 2 tablets per day, and end them on Friday- day of my next measurement and tiddie check.

I will then start the new ones from Saturday, and a new review/blog update post.

11/09/2021 - Update

So today i took my last Femme Enhance Pill, I have looked on Amazon and a few other sites, but still none available unless I want to pay way to much (£30-£50 for 30 tablets).

Anyway, looking in the mirror and down at my chest, I am convinced my little tiddies are more defined, rounder and plumper than before i started these tablets, and without any doubt my nipples are more sensitive than ever.

Measured myself, small changes but the right kind, and still no side effects.

I will post a table of my measurements for you all to see, and comment on if you desire too

Lena x